deja-vu... seen before...

2007-12-16T17:42:00.000+08:00

Q: what's tangible and what's intangible?

"intangible is like love. you can't feel it. tangible is like your butt. i can feel it."

- XXXXXXX

but yes. i'll miss you sha gua. take care and be good k?

2007-12-08T15:45:00.001+08:00

......

2007-11-22T15:25:00.000+08:00

爱情不是一道选择题。
我知道，那个时候你就已经做了决定。
你心里永远都有著一个相信。
而我的相信，就是支持著你的相信。
因为，我心里有三个字，
不能告诉你…

如果没有你和他的约定
我的爱会不会有一种权利
成为你的行李
陪著你去旅行
无论是北极还是雨林

我还守著我和他的约定
最後幸福会写下一份证明
就算没有日期
就算还会伤心
我仍相信生命的奇迹

不该再用我的爱困住你
不该再让你眼中有泪滴
好无力去找寻
那三个字的替代句

也许我们从此不再相遇
永远记得你微笑的眼睛
别伤心你放心
我知道三个字的意义

如果有一天命运让我们再次相遇
而你的答案还缺少一个回应
或许你不知道
其实我也在等待另一个奇迹

我还守著我和他的约定
最後幸福会写下一份证明
就算没有日期
就算还会伤心
我仍相信生命的奇迹

不该再用我的爱困住你
不该再让你眼中有泪滴
好无力去找寻
那三个字的替代句

也许我们从此不再相遇
永远记得你微笑的眼睛
别伤心你放心
我知道三个字的意义

别伤心你放心我知道(那)三个字的意义

当你笑著找到你的相信
我会将这三个字化作你的姓名
永远的放在心里...

- 三个字 (乔乔/阮经天)

三个字

2007-09-29T12:51:00.000+08:00

poor dongwan. =( =( =(

part 1

part 2

=(

2007-09-25T14:29:00.000+08:00

cause im bored and cause this alarm clock just got told to snooze. -.-

INSTRUCTIONS :
a) Bold the statements that are true to you
b) Italicize the statements that you WISH are true.
c) Leave the fibs alone.Then, pick 7 people to do the same test...

1) I miss somebody right now.
2) I do not watch tv these days.
3) I wear glasses or contact lenses.
4) I love to play video games.
5) I have tried marijuana.
6) I have been in a threesome.
7) I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
8) I have changed mentally over the last year.
9) I curse. (?)
10) I’m totally smart.
11) I’ve broken someone’s bones. (indirectly)
12) I’m paranoid sometimes.
13) I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
14) I need money right now.
15) I love sushi.
16) I talk really, really fast.
17) I have long hair.
18) I have lost money in Las Vegas.
19) I have at least one sibling.
20) I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
21) I couldn’t survive without Caller ID.
22) I like the way I look.
23) I am usually pessimistic.
24) I have a lot of mood swings.
25) I have a hidden talent.
26) I’m always hyper.
27) I have a lot of friends.
28) I have pecked someone of the same sex.
29) I enjoy talking on the phone.
30) I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
31) I love to shop.
32) Enjoy window shopping.
33) I would rather shop than eat.
34) I don’t hate anyone.
35) I’m a pretty good dancer.
36) I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
37) I have a cell phone.
38) I believe in God.
39) I am an adrenaline junkie.
40) I watch MTV on a daily basis.
41) I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
42) I’ve rejected someone before.
43) I want to have children in the future.
44) I have changed a diaper before.
45) I’ve called the cops on a friend before.
46) I’m not allergic to anything.
47) I have a lot to learn.
48) I’m shy around members of the opposite sex.
49) I have made a move on a friends’ significant other or crush in the past.
50) I have tried alcohol before.
51) I own the South Park movie.
52) I would die for my best friend.
53) I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
54) I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
55) I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
56) Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
57) I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
58) I am happy at this moment!
59) I’m obsessed with girls/guys.
60) I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.
61) I study for tests most of the time.
62) I am comfortable with who I am right now.
63) I have more than just my ears pierced.
64) I walk barefoot wherever I can.
65) I have jumped off a bridge.
66) I love sea turtles.
67) I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
68) Plan on achieving a major goal & dream.
69) I’m proficient in a musical instrument.
70) I hate office jobs.
71) I love sci-fi movies.
72) I think water rules.
73) I went college out of state
74) I like sausages.
75) I love kisses.
76) I fall for the worst people.
77) I adore bright colours.
78) I can’t live without black eyeliner.
79) I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
80) I usually like covers better than originals.
81) I can pick up things with my toes.
82) I can whistle.
83) I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake’s slither.
84) I have ridden/owned a horse.
85) I still have every journal I’ve written in.
86) I can’t stick to a diet.
87) I talk in my sleep.
88) I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
89) I have jazz in my blood.
90) Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
91) I wear a toe ring.
92) I can’t stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
93) I am a caffeine junkie.
94) I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
95) I have been to over 15 conventions.
96) I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
97) I’m an artist.
98) I only clean my room when necessary.
99) I like a person of the same sex.
100) I love being happy.

2007-09-04T21:03:00.000+08:00

happy 6th. =)

thanks for everything. not just today, but yesterday, the day before, the last 6 months, and all the days ahead. =)

2007-09-01T19:55:00.001+08:00

Earth in beauty dressed
Awaits returning spring.
All true love must die,
Alter at the best
Into some lesser thing.
Prove that I lie.

Such body lovers have,
Such exacting breath,
That they touch or sigh.
Every touch they give,
Love is nearer death.
Prove that I lie.

- 'Her Anxiety' by W.B. Yeats

2007-08-10T18:08:00.000+08:00

她总是不言不语
黄昏等到天微明
拔弄着怀那把无弘琴

寂寞里秋来春去
诺言随风都飘零
梦中人还是没捎来一点消息

一千零一夜
没有一夜不思念
每一份想念
化做不成双的蝶

一千零一夜
没有一夜不流泪
流到心里面变成雪

那一夜
一场大雨
园里的花落满地
那是他为她种的金线菊

当有人劝她放弃
她会微笑看着你
手心中紧紧握着发黄的回忆

一千零一夜
夜夜看到她思念
究竟谁让她有那么忧虑的脸

一千零一夜
夜夜听到她流泪
不知该怎么去安慰

是真心都疼真心
让我就从今夜起
在身边为她轻唱温暖的旋律

http://youtube.com/watch?v=7-n_FxWT6rU

its old school. but its precisely what brings back all those memories and the people in those memories.

the lyrics never struck me until now. i guess i just loved the melody back then but never really understood or could be expected to understand the meaning of those words. all i remember then, and now, is the haunting "yi qian ling yi ye..."

just ignore the guy's face and expressions/gestures. =p

2007-07-30T11:45:00.000+08:00

*growl*

i will remember to change my font before i post.

i will remember to change my font before i post.

i will remember to change my font before i post.

i will remember to change my font before i post.

i will remember to change..

*changes font*

2007-07-30T11:35:00.000+08:00

開始的感覺
kai shi de gan jue
At first you will feel

不會痛　不會痛
bu hui tong bu hui tong
No pain, no pain.

放大的瞳孔　就像作夢
fang da de tong kong jiu xiang zuo meng
In your enlarged pupils, it is like a dream.

幸福的錯覺　
xing fu de cuo jue
The mistaken sense of happiness,

很溫暖　很包容
hen wen nuan hen bao rong
Is very warm, very embracing;

也許還期待
ye xu hai qi dai
Perhaps you are even anticipating this.

這是致命的衝動　
zhe shi zhi ming de chong dong
This is a life-destroying impulse

...

這美麗的悲哀
zhe mei li de bei ai
This beautiful tragedy.

這是愛就是愛　
zhe shi ai jiu shi ai
This is love, this must be love,

全世界都不明白
quan shi jie dou bu ming bai
But in the whole world doesn’t understand.

note: NOT. angsting. just struck me that this's kinda true i guess. =S

2007-06-23T17:00:00.000+08:00

let's see when you'll notice this. dum di dum.. sleepy poo.

=p

SATs was kinda roar. roar in the boo sense. boo in the pok sense. pok in the ewwwww sense. ewwwwww in the i don't wanna waste another ____ hours of my life doing this stupid thing sense.

but overall roar, boo, pok, ewwwwww, i don't wanna waste another ______ hours of my life doing this stupid thing as it might be, i'll probably take it again.

shit. add a "im so stupid" to that list.

2007-04-06T23:24:00.000+08:00

16 more days. in a few more hours, it'll be 15 more days.

18 seems like such a big number. it seems so foreign.. it's almost scary.

i don't know what i want.

you're the only constant.

and im selfishly wishing things will never change.

i know im not making much sense at 23:27/28.

maybe im just afraid of growing up..

2007-03-26T17:43:00.000+08:00

dum. got my essay back. not fabulous.. but its kinda an improvement. just need to work on my time management now. hopefully it won't be too much of a disappointment. >.<>

wonky nose makes me wanna shleeeeeeepppppp..

2007-03-12T10:53:00.000+08:00

~~the feeling of being inferior kinda sucks. ok.. kinda's an understatement.~~

~~feeling that im not good enough.. to the extent that its "too bad for". i don't wanna feel this way.. wish i didn't have to feel this way.~~

~~=S/=(~~

dum. ignore that. since YOU make me smile. and strike ~~angsty posts~~ things out. =p

2007-02-11T11:25:00.000+08:00

roarrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!

stupid gmail account thingum. >.<

niwae.. down to the real reason why im here.

everything's been such a blur. its week after week after week of the same thing. i've given up on saying "next week will be better". it seems depressing but that's the way it is. i don't know when all this will stop.

there seems to be a break in sight.. but then again, that's what i thought the last few weeks when i went "next week will be better".

i really don't wanna burn out so soon. and they say it'll only get worse later. i can't burn out so soon. this shouldn't be happening.

im just really afraid i'll snap one day at someone who really doesn't deserve it. and i don't want to.

but there's nothing much i can do i guess. besides finishing this entry asap and getting back to work. meanwhile, just thanks for all the things that's been happening/people around me who've been keeping me sane and just understanding..

2006-12-03T16:33:00.001+08:00

how much does it take for someone to become "more mature"?

2006-11-30T10:51:00.000+08:00

You scored as Theater. You should be a Theater major! Like a bohemian actress, you are seasoned and confident and not afraid to express yourself!

Theater

100%

Sociology

100%

Linguistics

92%

English

92%

Journalism

92%

Anthropology

92%

Dance

83%

Art

83%

Psychology

67%

Philosophy

58%

Mathematics

42%

Biology

33%

Engineering

33%

Chemistry

25%

What is your Perfect Major? (PLEASE RATE ME!!<3)
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wokayyyy. =p haha.. it was either that or

You scored as Sociology. You should be a Sociology major!

Theater

100%

Sociology

100%

Linguistics

92%

English

92%

Journalism

92%

Anthropology

92%

Dance

83%

Art

83%

Psychology

67%

Philosophy

58%

Mathematics

42%

Biology

33%

Engineering

33%

Chemistry

25%

What is your Perfect Major? (PLEASE RATE ME!!<3)
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this. or this..

You scored as Linguistics. You should be a Linguistics major!

English

100%

Sociology

100%

Linguistics

100%

Theater

92%

Journalism

92%

Art

83%

Anthropology

83%

Dance

75%

Philosophy

67%

Psychology

58%

Mathematics

42%

Biology

33%

Chemistry

25%

Engineering

25%

What is your Perfect Major? (PLEASE RATE ME!!<3)
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or this.

You scored as English. You should be an English major! Your passion lies in writing and expressing yourself creatively, and you hate it when you are inhibited from doing so. Pursue that interest of yours!

English

100%

Sociology

100%

Linguistics

100%

Theater

92%

Journalism

92%

Art

83%

Anthropology

83%

Dance

75%

Philosophy

67%

Psychology

58%

Mathematics

42%

Biology

33%

Chemistry

25%

Engineering

25%

What is your Perfect Major? (PLEASE RATE ME!!<3)
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oh well.. whichever.

its just kinda.. =S to have your lit teacher suddenly pop you an email reminding you that you haven't finished your lit book and have actually been.. backtracking. and that there're assignments due when the year starts.

2006-11-24T10:49:00.000+08:00

My ex... pssssssh. what ex? screwed.

Maybe I should... stop angsting about that matter.

I love... pabo oppa. =)

People would say that i'm... angsty. yes. mostly angsty.

I don't understand... why math is still so screwed up for me.

When i wake up in the morning... i usually check which stuffed toy fell off my bed this time.

I lost... half my sanity when my cousins came over yesterday. along with half my bad mood. which came back really soon.

Life is full of... up-s and down-s.

My past is... screaming "WASTE OF TIME!!!!"

I get annoyed when... people do things without thinking about what they're actually doing. shallnotangstshallnotangstshallnotangst.

Parties are... fun with the right group of people around.

I wish... it won't rain before i reach the range and when i reach the range.. i won't snap at people.

Dogs... man's best friend! =)

Cats... are not number 1 on my "pets i like" list. seven's the only exception.

Tomorrow... i have piano. urgh.

I have low tolerance... for alot of small nitty gritty things. bite me.

If I had a million dollars... i'd fly to korea and buy all the stuff i want, give some people long over-due treats, buy myself some stuff here and there and save the rest up!

I'm totally terrified... of death. not my death. but others. and the things that follow when death occurs.

i miss sabby. =( somehow seeing her in school, although a really rare occurence, just makes me feel so much better.. its like some kinda reassurance. she's just a really important part of that crazy secondary school life.

2006-11-18T11:30:00.000+08:00

01. I've always been a loner.
02. Pretty girls make me squeal.
03. I love long hair on guys.
04. I'm second in my class.
05. I have a bad habit of using faces.
06. I have multiple eating disorders.
07. I hate when people pretend to be bi in order to be trendy.
08. I hate the phrase "metro sexual."
09. My goal in life is to travel.
10. kyo. ??? huh??
11. I detest children over the age of 3
12. I'm still a child at heart.
13. I'm the best at ping pong.
14. I was in love with Johnny Depp before anyone even considered making The Pirates of the Caribbean.
15. Pink is one of the best colors.
16. I am pro-choice.
17. No offense, but I'm sick of seeing Jack Sparrow icons.
18. People say I have no body fat, but oh, are they wrong.
19. I prefer being single.
20. I am a jealous person.
21. I hate criticism, even though it helps me more than I think it does. kinda..
22. I don't know how to respond to compliments.
23. I love writing, even though I think my writing is terrible.
24. I wear a ton of makeup.
25. I look at everyone's AIM info every time they're online, even though they rarely change.
26. I also read everyone's away messages.
27. I have been known to play video games for unhealthy amounts of time.
28. I am passionate about all of my interests.
29. I hate people who hold strong opinions on things they know nothing about.
30. I hate it when people look over my shoulder.
31. I don't like what I look like.
32. I'm a grammar-nazi.
33. I procrastinate.
34. I hate DragonBall Z.
35. I sleep too little.
36. Je parle le francais.
37. I am obsessed with making journal icons.
38. I eat more junk food than regular food.
39. I think Xanga is the best journal site out there.
40. In fact... I really dislike LJ.
41. I cry over everything.
42. A lot of people in my school dislike me.
43. I complain about everything.
44. I have a very high-pitched voice.
45. I squeak a lot, involuntarily, and often get made fun of for it.
46. I'm indecisive.
47. It makes me mad when things I like become trendy. long story..
48. I could live off of sushi.
49. I have a lot more money than do most of my friends.
50. I like girls with dark hair.
51. No one listens to the same music as me.
52. It is a proven fact that I prefer talking to people online if they use complete sentences and correct grammar/punctuation.
53. It's easier than most would expect to make me cry. ermmmmm.........
54. I'm tired of worrying about shit.
55. I correct others' spelling/grammar quite often.
56. I don't play any team sports for my school.
57. I want to go to Japan.
58. I hate sounding obsessed with a musical artist.
59. I like it when my friends write me letters, it makes me feel special.
60. I never want to get married.
61. I like PIRATES!
62. I hate any alcoholic drinks.
63. I prefer urban life over rural life.
64. I'm obsessed with fashion.
65. I like to make my own clothes.
66. My grades are very important to me.
67. Contrary to popular belief, I don't hate everyone.
68. I hate a lot of people.
69. Androgyny is sexy. :) at times. =)
71. I rant too much.
72. I hog the covers.
73. I'm online a lot. I have no life.
74. I am a good judge of character.
75. I find it difficult to be friends with stupid people.
76. I am obsessed with anime.
77. I like to read a lot.
78. I can be really mean when I want to.
79. I can also be more thoughtful than a lot of people.
80. I always try to help others as much as I can. if im not trying to be mean to them. =p
81. I'm very extremely irritable.
82. I've never cheated in school, and I hate people that do.
83. I've never cheated in a relationship, and if anyone ever cheated on me, he would never get a second chance.
84. My parents are divorced.
85. Narrow minded people make me want to get a gun.
86. I have a stepmother.
87. I love ice cream.
88. I haven't watched The Sound of Music yet.
89. I hate people that cut to be trendy, and I think it's just crazy that there are people who only do that to be cool.
90. I hate having the feeling that I'm not going to go anywhere in life.
91. I don't like crowds. at times.
92. I hate people that think the mall is the root of all evil. It's just a place. Get over it.
93. I'm not as much of a TV addict as I used to be.
94. Most of my friends hate Bush
95. I am better at keeping secrets than are most of my friends.
96. I'm a lazy ass.
97. I love my parents, but never know how to show them.
98. I am not yet in college, or am I going back soon.
99. I have no idea where I'd like to go to college.
100. I wish there were more questions, I'm on a roll.

2006-11-11T11:17:00.000+08:00

you guys put a smile on my face which i can never seem to wipe off. <3

gosh.. i can't believe i just used "<3">.<

2006-11-08T15:52:00.000+08:00

i almost banged my head against the wall last night when i switched to channel 51 and saw that they were halfway through the SJ "U" mv. except i couldn't do that cause i had to stare mouth agape at the tv screen until the mv ended.

sungmin.

heechul.

*dies*

note: youtube quality of the mv sucks. totally does the mv (and the guys inside) no justice.

2006-11-02T13:09:00.000+08:00

im so bored it's disgusting.

How many times can you honestly say you've been in love?
0. so there you have it.

Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?
yep!

Do you think that you should become friends with someone first?
isn't it a given?

Have you ever had your heart broken?
psssshh..

What do you think about long-distance relationships?
like like that lorh. =p haha.. ok.. seriously.. why not? takes alot to maintain though.

Your thoughts on online relationships?
possible but can be quite screwed up.

Would you date someone five years older?
why not? except pabo oppa's just a year older and he's all im considering. =p

Have you ever seen a friend as more than a friend?
huh?

Do you believe the statement, "Once a cheater always a cheater"?
nope. its just that the other party probably won't trust you as much as before and will always remember that "cheater" bit to you.

Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt & you cried?
analysis of question: love? nope and we'll stop it at that.

How many kids do you want to have?
5

Is there someone whom you like at the moment?
i like the world and the world likes me? i hope? ^__^

Do you usually fall for a wrong guy/girl or the right guy/girl?
huh? what's wrong and what's right? ahhhhh.. philo eh? =p

What is your favorite color?
blue. ask again and i'll smack something.

What are your views on gay marriages?
why not?

Have you ever broken someone's heart?
have i? don't think so.

Have you ever given or been given roses?
yep. didn't mean anything much though.

Are you the one who makes the move or do you wait for them to make the move?
im too lazy to move and too slow to comprehend.

What is your all time favorite romance movie?
urgh. don't know don't care don't ask.

Imagine you're 79 & your spouse just died, would you remarry after they died & you were married for 60 years?
as angie put it: crazy.

At what age did you start noticing the opposite/same sex?
really really early. like my dad, and my cousins and my classmates......... im not so mean as to pretend they're invisible you know.

Are most high school kids infatuated or in love?
infatuated?

What was your first love(like)?
once again, don't know don't care don't ask.

What's the longest you've ever liked someone?
ask me the second before i die.

Would you give up everything for love?
quite very possibly.

Will your life be incomplete without love?
my life's not over.. ask me that when it is.

What do you like most about your crush?
what crush??? ^___^ his ass. psssssssssshh. PLEASE!!!!! do NOT take that statement seriously.

Do you like someone?
~~love~~ liking makes the world go round. =p

Want to get married?
and be a tai-tai, yes. sigh.. ok.. scratch that tai-tai bit.

2006-11-02T12:56:00.000+08:00

its been ages since i did one of these so..

Who was the last person that...

1. Made you smile: truly smile? brown cow. =)
2. Saw you cry: no one unless you count mr ruffles who's not really a person
3. Went to the movies with you: alot of people? nat, ongnardo, dylan, psy, daniel, aaron =)
4. Talked to you on the phone last: brown cow.

1. Flowers or ice cream: ice cream
2. Gray or black: black
3. Color or black and white photos: black and white
4. Lust or love: love
5. Sunrise or sunset: sunset
6. Staying up late or waking up early: staying up late

Answer honestly..
1. Do you like anyone now: just about everyone i know. =p
2. Smoke: no
3. Steal: yes, but in the two-way kinda way. long story..
4. Do you believe in love at first sight: yes

1. Sun or moon: moon
2. Tea or coffee: if lemon tea's counted. =p
3. Left or right: right
4. 10 acquaintances or having 2 best friends: 2 best friends
5. Sunny or rainy: rainy
6. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream: chocolate

About you..
1. What time is it: 12.53 pm
2. Name: lynette
3. What do you want right this second: go back to my room
4. How many kids do you want: 5
5. Do you want to get married: yes? no? maybe?
6. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it: twirl
7. Do you cook: kinda? just don't make me cut anything in the preparation process..

In the last week have you...
1. Bought something: yes
2. Sang: yes
3. Been hugged: yep!
4. Felt stupid: yes, was in klutz mode yesterday
5. Gotten your hair cut: nope
6. Cried: yes
7. Said I love you: nope, at least not meaning it in the real "i love you, i wanna live the rest of my life with you" way.

2006-11-02T12:00:00.000+08:00

took this quiz:

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

some things are kinda weird but oh well..

2006-10-24T20:27:00.000+08:00

third post of the day. somehow whenever i take note of the song that's playing on my playlist.. its always zai yi ci yong you.

coincidence? ~~i think not.~~

i should let pabo oppa dominate my life once again.

2006-10-24T18:23:00.000+08:00

its during times like these that i feel really stupid.

i just blabber and blabber and blabber nonstop.

at the end of the day.. im just useless and can't doing anything at all.

2006-10-24T17:55:00.000+08:00

after clearing up some template-y stuff (meaning my archives links), i should have a hubby list soon..

The Hubbys
Hubbys (hub-bys) n. term used as a claim of ownership to hot celebs even though they completely have no idea that they are claimed.

- credits: Faded Photograph's site

i shall get down to it. when i finally have the guts to. *whimpers and hides*

2006-10-23T21:32:00.000+08:00

nan guo nan guo nan guo nan guo nan guo nan guo nan guo nan guo nan guo nan guo

=(

why is this happening.. why am i feeling this way?

2006-10-22T13:10:00.000+08:00

dum di dum.. i don't particularly like this mv.. but the falsetto/helium-sucking thingie bit at the start and end just amuses me. and the girl is chio. =p i think some dong bang voices sound quite jap-ish. =)

miss you pv

absolutely happening. ok maybe not. ~~chio chio deliciously edible jae inside.~~ (ok.. i take that back. i've definitely seen better) and min trying to sound all rock-ish. >.<

i wanna watch prestige. and deathnote. *whines*

2006-10-15T13:25:00.000+08:00

to you, a must-have adjective for just about every girl you get to know for the first time is gorgeous. but at last count, i don't exactly remember singapore having so many of such people who're worthy of being described as gorgeous.

pretty maybe. cute, uh huh. attractive, yeppers. stands out, possibly.

but gorgeous, if you haven't already realized, is a little too strong a word to be used with such frequency.

which made me come to a few conclusions.

firstly: you're blind as a bat. and the lightings in clubs and what not weird places you meet these "gorgeous"-es don't exactly improve the situtation.

secondly: they're not gorgeous at all but you term them as such to make yourself seem oh-so popular with girls, and these supposedly "gorgeous" people are your friends which therefore makes you popular and/or gorgeous yourself. and in all honesty, you being a model aside, you really aren't that gorgeous. seriously.

thirdly: you're just trying to be nice and calling everyone gorgeous. word of advice: don't go around doing that to every single girl you meet, strike a conversation with, seem to have a number of topics in common and have a meal with/go for a stroll with. its evil to bring someone's hopes all the way up only to have the truth be something totally different.

the last one was completely ridiculous.. that i have to say. its just not possible.

conclusion: thank goodness she dumped you.

looking back, this post doesn't really make much sense. =p

2006-10-08T10:19:00.000+08:00

guy-bashing season of the year's here!!!!

haha.. sigh. but honestly, guys who are attached should seriously keep their eyes/arms/hands to the girl next to them. and the ground they walk on.

and no wonder they say there's an alarming number of alumni from my school who don't get married. not when you have guys like that. thanks but no thanks. =p

2006-10-04T18:34:00.000+08:00

i think i've played O a little too loud and on repeat for too long. now my sister's tuition teacher's kinda.. whistling the tune and tapping his finger to it, while im playing it, and when i pause it. >.<

can things remain this way or even.. improve? but somehow i don't even dare to ~~expect~~ hope for anything.

2006-10-01T10:36:00.000+08:00

can't seem to post chinese lyrics. oh well. feeling horribly sleepyyyyy..

but at least.. a major accomplishment: the betrayer one-shot's completed!

2006-09-23T15:06:00.000+08:00

was looking at the first few mails i got in my current mail inbox.. at least the ones which i bothered to keep. though come to think of it.. maybe it wasn't a matter of me bothering to keep it cause of its educational value..

the mail was very aptly titled: glycolysis and krebs cycle shit (word for word)

and the contents: "... i dunno how to explain the 2nd qn but since he only stated "state" and not "explain" ..."

hey! that means i wasn't such a big ~~slack~~ science noob just a year or so ago. =p wonder what happened in between. but still, amongst all the sciences, i'll stand by declaring my undying love for bio any day.

reminiscing the days when a dramatization for macbeth text was what we did for a pt. (we ended up doing a chicken rice dramatization of the text and CA and i were the two hapless maids who ran about like headless.. pun unintended.. chickens and were drugged. but of course, we achieved the goal of being there for the sake of comic relief)

and of course, when a certain someone totally did not get hints and i first coined the term: "phone expulsion".

2006-09-22T19:10:00.000+08:00

somehow this song's just stuck to me. the lyrics.. what the song means.

If it's money One! One! whoever it's okay.
You can't hold onto it.
You can't get anymore.
There's only attachment left.
You were hoping for a miracle-like love, but there's no such thing.
You rate everything and you don't need anything that doesn't deal with money.
You've thrown away love and lost faith.
You can throw away whoever you want.

If it's money One! One! whoever is okay.
But if not Two! Two! they can just forget it.
No, in your life, twice no three times, no it's only one time.
Don't chase after worthless things.

You are so up and going down down, only heading towards fleeting things.
Turn back the days when you were happiest.
Where has the real you gone?
Now stop up and going down down, and don't get lured here and there.
You can't sell your special value, because this is a life that you live only once.

Whatever they say, I'm the best.
Please, stop with the endless selfishness.
You can't do it by yourself.
There is someone by your side.

Don't just leave regret.
Turn around.
There's no longer any love or faith beside you.
Only the outside shell of yourself.

It's hard to choose until the very end, because nothing is for sure.
You get stronger when you fail.
You learn.

Even if you become wretched and become rich,
you'll know where you were really yourself.
Matching up to your expensive pride,
might have been a dream or it might have flown away.
Don't loose yourself, don't become like that.
Don't give up.

You are so up and going down down, only heading towards fleeting things.
Turn back the days when you were happiest.
Where has the real you gone?

Now stop up and going down down, and don't get lured here and there.
You can't sell your special value, because this is a life that you live only once.

- million men by dbsg
credits: Jungie @ aheeyah.com (some changes made)

up and going down down...........

2006-09-22T18:19:00.000+08:00

maybe it isn't that impossible or hard afterall.

im just sick and tired of it.

2006-09-17T09:55:00.000+08:00

haha.. got this from bren's blog. my eyes kinda widened at certain bits, some of them were also highlighted by her. but yes. here's it:

The middle or second born child or children often have the sense of not belonging. They fight to receive attention from parents and others because they feel many times they are being ignored or dubbed off as being the same as another sibling. Being in the middle a child can feel insecure. The middle child often lacks drive and looks for direction from the first born child. Sometimes a middle child feels out of place because they are not over achievers and like to go with the flow of things. Being a middle child would mean they are loners. They really don't like to latch on to a person in a relationship, there fore they have trouble keeping one due to lack of interest. Not liking to take the limelight for anything, they are not over achievers and just simply work enough work to get by, and typically that goes with school as well as a career. They are however very artistic and creative. If forced to use abilities they will work well, but do not work well under pressure. They often start several projects but rarely keep focused long enough to finish a project. The best career move for a middle child would be along the lines of using their creative. Going into a writing or journalism career, and into a career that they could freely express themselves would be good. Anything that would have hours that are flexible, and projects that frequently changed would be good for a middle born child. Since relationships are not of high importance to a middle child, often times they are alone. However, the best possible match for a middle child would be a last born.

*coughs* *chokes* *dies*

edits: that got me quite very interested. so i did more research.. =p

Oldest and youngest children can usually find reasons to be glad about their place in the family. Not so middle children. They often aren't the biggest and strongest, they aren't the babies who get away with murder, they aren't really anything special, at least in their own minds. Sometimes they feel invisible. But this uncomfortable feeling of not having a defined place in the family may actually turn out to be an advantage. Unlike first children, who often define success by their ability to meet their parents' expectations, middle children are more prone to rebel against the status quo. Another result of having a less well-defined place in the family is that middle children often reach outside the family for significant relationships. They make close circles of friends. During adolescence, in particular, they may be especially influenced by their peer groups, often to their parents' dismay.

Relationship with parents: Parents may not have as strong a sense of what to expect from a middle child as they do for a firstborn or their youngest. In one way, that's a good thing, because it gives the middle child freedom to follow his individual path. On the other hand, the sense of being less understood makes some middle children feel unloved. From the parents' point of view, the fact that there are a thousand baby pictures of the first child, and only a few dozen of the second-born simply means that they got tired of getting rolls and rolls of film developed. But from the middle child's vantage point, it is documentary proof of their second-class status. In terms of sibling rivalry, the firstborn may be struggling to maintain her position on top, but middle children seemingly struggle just to be noticed at all.

Relationships with siblings: For any middle child, the biggest point of comparison is the sibling who falls just before them in the birth order. Often, rather than competing head-on with that older sibling, the middle child chooses to go in a different direction. If the older sibling is a great student, for example, the middle child may become a musician or an athlete. (There's some research suggesting that middle children are more likely to engage in dangerous sports, perhaps because they are used to taking risks.) By choosing a niche that isn't already occupied, a middle child increases his chances of standing out and being noticed, and decreases the risk of negative comparisons. Middle children, who are usually smaller than their older siblings while they're growing up, often learn non-aggressive strategies to get what they want, such as negotiation, cooperation, or seeking parental intervention. As the underdogs themselves in many sibling conflicts, middle children often develop a fine sense of empathy with the downtrodden, as do many youngest children. Where first and last children may tend to be self-centered, middle children often take a genuine interest in getting to know other people. Being in the middle, they may find it easier to look at interpersonal situations from various points of view.

Positives: The classic middle-born is very relational, tends to be a people-pleaser and usually hates confrontation. Their basic need is to keep life smooth and their motto might be 'peace at any price'. They are usually very calm, will roll with the punches and are amiable, down-to-earth and great listeners. They are skilled at seeing both sides of a problem and eager to make everybody happy. That makes them good mediators and negotiators.

Negatives:They tend to be less driven than first-borns, but are much more eager to be liked - or at least be happy with them. They have a difficult time setting boundaries. They can drift into becoming 'co-dependent' as they try to please everybody. They are not good at making decisions that will offend others. They also tend to blame themselves when others fail.

Middle children can have many contradictory characteristics, but one common thread seems to hold true: their personalities are usually the opposite of those of the first borns. If the first born is a loner, the next born will have numerous friends. If the first born is ambitious, the second born may be more laid back. The second born, after all, has to carve out his or her own distinct identity, and the first born has already made a claim on the adult-oriented and ambitious traits. It is common for the middle child to feel squeezed out, with the older and younger children getting more attention—so they turn to the world outside of the family, to their friends. Second borns or middle children are often very sociable and they become good mediators. They learn the art of negotiation and compromise. They are generally free-spirited, independent and sometimes rebellious. Because they don’t get as much attention, they learn not to reveal as much about their thoughts and emotions as others do. And since they didn’t stand out in the family as much while growing up, they place great value on loyalty—they are the likeliest to remain monogamous in their relationships.

2006-09-16T13:35:00.000+08:00

in view of recent comments that my entries are.. angsty.. which by the way.. im so not lah. i have loads of =)-s in them kayyyyyy..

but yes anyway.. something to totally look forward to.

dong bang's 3rd album's gonna be out on 28/9. a.k.a last day of promos for yours truly.

i shall let my evil suaning laughter fill the rest of this space. =p

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

although it won't be here until who knows when.. and i'll be going to the range straightaway given the high probability that i'll be twitching and sniffling as a result of withdrawal symptoms.

but still.. last day of promos. WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!

2006-09-14T20:43:00.000+08:00

ouch.

the first thing that would come to almost everyone's mind would be.. that's such a stupid thing to do. you're just running away from the problem and causing so much hurt.

but i don't know.. personally.. all that went through my head was.. "you can't blame him.. you just can't.."

i don't know. maybe after looking at things from the same perspective for such a long time, you start to wonder if that's really always the case. and somehow i came to that conclusion.

its just that the timing's really wrong. but then again.. you can't blame him. you really can't.

2006-09-08T16:54:00.000+08:00

I have lived through 103 of these 159 things!

1. Put numbers in the boxes instead of x's (example: 1, 2, 3, 4, ...)
2. Repost as "I have lived through ___ of these 159 things."
3. Add one of your own and add 1 to 159

[1] I have read a lot of books.
[2] I have been on some sort of varsity team.
[3] I have run more than 2 miles without stopping. (surprise surprise!)
[ ] I have been to Canada.
[4] I have been to Europe.
[5] I have watched cartoons for hours.
[6] I have tripped UP the stairs.
[7] I have fallen down an entire flight of stairs.
[8] I have been snowboarding/skiing.
[9] I have played ping pong.
[10] I swam in the ocean.
[11] I have been on a whale watch.
[12] I have seen fireworks.
[13] I have seen a shooting star.
[ ] I have seen a meteor shower.
[14] I have almost drowned.
[15] I have been so embarrassed I wanted to disappear.
[16] I have listened to one CD over and over and over again.
[ ] I have had stitches.
[ ] I have had frostbite.
[17] I have licked a frozen pole and got stuck there.
[18] I have stayed up 'til 2 doing homework/projects. (i think. or at least close to it. 1.30??(
[ ] I currently have a job.
[19] I have been ice skating.
[20] I have been roller blading.
[21] I have fallen flat on my face. (on bed?)
[22] I have tripped over my own two feet.
[23] I have been in a fist fight.
[24] I have played video games for more than 3 hours straight.
[25] I have watched the Power Rangers.
[ ] I attend Church regularly.
[26] I have played truth or dare.
[27] I have already had my 16th birthday.
[28] I have already had my 17th birthday.
[29] I've called someone stupid.
[30] I've been in a verbal argument.
[31] I've cried in school.
[ ] I've played basketball on a team.
[ ] I've played baseball on a team.
[ ] I've played football on a team.
[ ] I've played soccer on a team.
[ ] I've done cheerleading on a team.
[ ] I've played softball on a team.
[ ] I've played volleyball on a team.
[ ] I've played tennis on a team.
[ ] I've been on a track or cross country team.
[33] I've been swimming more than 20 times in my life.
[ ] I've bungee jumped.
[34] I've climbed a rock wall.
[ ] I've lost more than $20.
[35] I've called myself an idiot.
[36] I've called someone else an idiot.
[37 ] I've cried myself to sleep.
[38] I've had (or have) pets. (does the terrapin that crawled into my house and we kept for awhile count?)
[39] I've owned a spice girls CD.
[40] I've owned a Britney Spears CD.
[ ] I've owned an N*Sync CD.
[41] I've owned a Backstreet Boys CD. (shared)
[ ] I've mooned someone.
[42] I have sworn at someone of authority before.
[ ] I've been in the newspaper.
[43] I've been on TV.
[ ] I've been to Hawaii.
[44] I've eaten sushi.
[45] I've been on the other side of a waterfall.
[46] I've watched all of the Lord of the Rings movies.
[47] I've watched all the Harry Potter movies.
[ ] I've watched all of the Rocky movies.
[ ] I've watched the 3 stooges.
[48] I've watched "Newlyweds" Nick & Jessica.
[49] I've watched Looney Tunes.
[ ] I've been stuffed into a locker/I have stuffed others into lockers.
[50] I've been called a geek.
[51] I've studied hard for a test and got a bad grade. (49%!!!!!!!!!! ANGST!!!!)
[52] I've not studied at all for a test and aced it.
[ ] I've hugged my mom within the past 24 hrs.
[ ] I've hugged my dad within the past 24 hours.
[53] I've met a celebrity/music artist.
[54] I've written poetry.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[55] I've been attracted to someone much older than me.
[56] I've been tickled till I've cried.
[57] I've tickled someone else until they cried.
[58] I've had/have siblings.
[ ] I've been to a rock concert.
[59] I've listened to classical music and enjoyed it.
[60] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've been picked last in gym class.
[61] I've been picked first in gym class.
[62] I've been picked in that middle-range in gym class.
[63] I've cried in front of my friends.
[64] I've read a book longer than 1,000 pages
[65] I've played Halo 2. (and got completely, utterly, totally owned)
[66] I've freaked out over a sports game.
[ ]I've been to Alaska.
[ ] I've been to China.
[ ] I've been to Spain.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[67] I've had a fight with someone on AIM.
[68] I've had a fight with someone face-to-face.
[69] I've had serious conversations on any IM.
[70] I've forgiven someone who has done something wrong to me.
[71] I've been forgiven.
[72] I've screamed at a scary movie.
[73 ] I've cried at a chick flick. (i think. not very sure..)
[74] I've watched a lot of action movies. (if watching includes having your hands in front of yor eyes and you're peeking through them)
[75] I've screamed at the top of my lungs.
[ ] I've been to a rap concert.
[ ] I've been to a hip hop concert.
[76] I've lived in more than 2 houses.
[77] I've driven on the highway/been on the highway.
[78] I've driven more than 40 miles in a day/been in a car that went more than 40 miles in a day.
[ ] I've been in a car accident.
[ ] I've done drugs.
[79] I've been homesick.
[80] I've thrown up.
[ ] I've puked on someone. (control.) *grins*
[81] I've been horseback riding.
[82] I've filled out more than 10 myspace/LJ surveys.
[83] I've spoken my mind in public.
[84] I've proven someone wrong.
[85] I've been proven wrong by someone.
[ ] I've broken a leg.
[ ] I've broken an arm/fingers.
[ ] I've fallen off a swing.
[86] I've swung on a swing for more than 30 minutes straight.
[87] I've watched Winnie the Pooh movies.
[ ] I've forgotten my backpack when I've gone to school.
[ ] I've lost my backpack.
[ ] I've come close to dying. (at least i wouldn't consider THAT close to dying)
[ ] I've seen someone die.
[88] I've known someone who has died.
[89] I've wanted to be an actor/actress at some point.
[ ] I've done modeling.
[90] I've forgotten to brush my teeth some mornings.
[91] I've taken something/someone for granted.
[92] I've realized how good my life is.
[93] I've counted my blessings.
[94] I've made fun of a classmate.
[95] I've been asked out by someone and I said no. (not that kind of meaning, thou xP)
[96] I've slapped someone in the face.
[ ] I've been skateboarding.
[97] I've been back stabbed by someone I thought was a friend.
[98] I've lied to someone to their face.
[99] I've told a little white lie.
[ ] I've taken a day off from school just so I don't go insane.
[ ] I've fainted.
[ ] I've had an argument with someone about whether cheerleading is a sport or not.
[100] I've pushed someone into a pool.
[101] I've been pushed into a pool.
[102] I've been/am in love.
[ ] I've had my prayers answered before

sleeppyyyyyyy. i seriously have to get back to my normal sleeping time. seriously.

2006-09-06T19:53:00.000+08:00

i swear i didn't do anything. but the name was just highlighted on my contact list.

so screwed. so so so so soooooooooo scrooed.

2006-09-02T14:31:00.000+08:00

SAFRA results were finally put up. here.

i was just looking through the whole list and.. analysing it if it can be considered analysing? need to work work work work hard still. >.<

and while looking through.. you kinda relive the day itself. just bits and pieces of it cause everything was such a crazy crazy rush and blur then..

but for now.. its hist notes time. =p

2006-09-01T10:18:00.000+08:00

i was dropped from the list. i guess it was kinda expected. but the feeling still sucks.

if it was anyone's fault.. i guess it probably was mine. except i don't know what i can do about it. everytime i try.. i just get pushed away.

i guess that's it.

2006-08-21T18:10:00.000+08:00

ok.. so happens i screwed up my second round again. but oh well.. it wasn't that bad. =p

had loads of fun. and i was dead on the morning of day 2.. but somehow managed to hype myself up by the time i reached SAFRA. =) woots. haha..

but yep. it was fun. i think everyone had fun.. even if it wasn't shooting.. just hanging around with everyone else.. including the tp archers.. and talking crap.. doing homework and complaining [ while i read daryl's physics ENCYCLOPEDIA =p ].. photowhoring [ ok.. i guess it was just nat and me. biggie. ] and just hanging round near or on the stage and ~~talking alot of crap~~ commenting about the shooting while looking through/demanding for/snatching daryl's binoculars. which reminds me.. i gotta apologize to someone. >.<

oh! and the cheering during team event!!!! haha.. we've gotta do that more often! =)

haha.. but yep yep.. fun fun! haha.. and post-comps celebratory dinner with our batch is REALLY different from the ones you have with the seniors. REALLY different.

i just wish you were there...

2006-08-18T16:06:00.000+08:00

i never had the time to look through it.. and just had a proper look at it just now. nj results.

dum di dum.. must worky hardyyyyyyyyyyyy.. =p yep yep.. no more screwing up for my second round. >.< *smacks self* haha.

but yepp.. meanwhile.. time to get some work done since my weekend's gone with the windddd~~~

ok.. maybe not. =p

2006-08-12T10:43:00.000+08:00

My heart is telling me its too late to beg you to stay

You wouldn't hear me anyway..

2006-08-04T23:50:00.000+08:00

*looks at old entries* tsk. what a angsty teenager i am. tsk tsk.

blargh. better go off to sleep. =p

2006-08-04T21:42:00.000+08:00

i wish it could affect me less. that i could not think about it, whether or not there's something else that ought to be occupying my thoughts.

i wish all this could stop. that it never started anyway. but somehow, part of me just knows that things just wouldn't be right if not for this.

i wish time could rewind a little. and stop.

i.. i.. i. here i go again.

2006-07-30T11:42:00.000+08:00

missed individual 9th by a single point.

and team gold by a point also.

the only way i can comfort myself is by telling myself that this is my first MAJOR comps and those people are older than me. but either way, they truly deserved it more than me. its just that i couldn't stop the tears.

and i feel super bad about walking away without my team. i just didn't have the guts to think or hear the results. just too scared to do anything, but walk away.

BUT.. BUT.. BUT!!!! on to the next comps. and we'll OWNZ!!!!!

2006-07-23T12:01:00.000+08:00

what?????

im like.. only 17. 17. sweet seventeen (though not so sweet). seven.teen.

im not ready for this. at all. any of this. and you slam it all on me. im sure. this is freaky. and i shall not think about it anymore. yes. i shall go do pw. do pw and be a good girl.

2006-07-18T21:51:00.000+08:00

gosh. pissed off. and me being so zonked out i can just smash my head into this laptop's not helping things at all.

hello? like surprise, surprise.. but i happen to have a life too. *waves* like.. one outside that. just like you. unfortunate, but true. so what're you gonna do about it?

i mean.. giving everyone that.. oh-my-goodness-im-doing-so-much-for-you-guys-so-why-don't-you-just-kowtow-to-me look. like.. geez. what's with it? seriously.. take a look in the mirror. and, i don't know if its cause you're having problems outside or you're unhappy with how things are going on inside. cause if its cause you're having problems outside, don't others? are yours the only ones can be considered big enough for you? and you just come in looking all pissed off, like the world owes you a living and we should be glad you're even coming. biggie.

and if you're unhappy with things here, just let us know! i mean.. what's with all that self-sacrificial act? in the end, it's just pushed aside. and who cleans it up?

you change things as and when you feel like it or want it. no asking of opinions or objections. just smack down and goodbye. anyone who has problems.. they can go figure how they'll solve it. its none of your business.

just.. urgh. pissed off. better get back to work now. >.<

2006-07-08T23:12:00.000+08:00

started a new fic.. The Betrayer.

can't stand her. 2 hours of listening to dong bang and shinhwa but still pissed. its not like i haven't had enough crap this week. and she pretends to know what's going on but just adds on to all that crap. WARGHHHHHHHHHHH..

2006-06-25T11:04:00.000+08:00

i don't think i've ever been so high while mugging before. so sue me. =p

anyway, i need to look for different ways to self-entertain. it was fine previously. a little weird, but still acceptable (i hope?) but now its like weird. like i end up making weird zooming noises while i slide around the house to get to my room to look for notes. and i "zoom" somemore on the way back. baddddddddd. this is badddddddddd.

and i can't watch my vcds/dvds to entertain myself otherwise. dang.. totally wish the cts are over this very second so i can lay my hands on those gorgeous vcds/dvds and watch without feeling guilty. >.<

so yep.. that's all for now.. back to mugging and thinking of other ways to self-entertain.

2006-05-29T21:41:00.000+08:00

random post once again.

i don't want my baby to be sexy. he's MY BABY. i don't know where to put the stress on. MY. or BABY.

ohhhhhhh crap.

2006-05-22T21:56:00.000+08:00

seriously, i don't need this now. to be really honest, not now.. not ever.

2006-05-17T21:02:00.000+08:00

i hate "if only"-s. don't wanna think about it. i just wish it could go away.

2006-05-14T12:15:00.000+08:00

since im so bored and kinda sian with histroy.. despite it being just 2 paras long.. here comes my third song-quiz thingie.

How does the world see me?
my little princess - dbsg

Will I have a happy life?
mo li hua

What do my friends really think of me?
ye zi - ah sang

Do people secretly lust after me?
liu xing . shen ling . yu - daniel chan

How can I make myself happy?
gang gang hao - hua er yue tuan

What should I do with my life?
di yi bai ling yi ge da an - jiang mei qi

Will I ever have children?
one, i wanna hold you and rising sun performances - dbsg

What is some good advice for me?
somebody to love - dbsg

How will I be remembered?
whatever they say - dbsg

What is my signature dancing song?
shi jie mo ri - jay chou

What song will play at my funeral?
i'm with you [it died halfway and became..] gu dan bei ban qiu - lin yi chen

What type of women do I like?
ain't no mountain high enough - play

What was yesterday like?
you'll be in my heart - phil collins

i've really gotta get my hands on my referral letter soon. this sucks.

2006-05-12T17:29:00.000+08:00

watch this.

its kinda heartwarming, but scary at times. but definitely good. =)

2006-05-07T15:25:00.000+08:00

since half the world seems to be doing 2 surveys, which are really quite mindless but bring about quite abit of cheap thrill and fun.. i shall go on to do the second one. the first one was done [twice!] 2 entries before this.

Name 20 people you can think of right now at the top of your head. Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 20 people. At the end, tag at least 5 people.

1. bren
2. nu ren
3. justina
4. roy
5. gerald leong
6. liben
7. alcina
8. darrell
9. eechong
10. sharleen
11. ke zhong
12. yennn
13. daniel
14. ray
15. nazi
16. kartik
17. shinbin
18. jason
19. james
20. cheng

Questions:

How did you meet 14?
in sec 3, we were classmates. and we're still.. humanzmates? dang.. i miss her.

What would you do if you've never met 1?
i wouldn't ever know that someone loves pink as much, if not more than i love blue. and life would be with alot less fun, laughter, bitching and niceness.

What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?
ermmmmmmmmmmmmmm.. i don't think that'll happen? but if it does.. i'll wish them all the best.

Did you ever like 19?
of course!! so much i wanna set his house on fire/stab him with my arrows. OF COURSE i like him! okok.. fine. he's nice. at times. so yes.. in the friends way.

Would 6 and 17 make a good couple?
well besides the fact that they are both dancers and from my og.. not really. but on second thought.. there's still the possibility.. =)

Describe 3.
loads of fun, laughter, aunty-ness [second only to alcina], mugger-ness and just.. niceness. oh yes.. and she has a nice shoulder, but refuses to lend it to me since she claims both her shoulders are only for other people, not me.

Do you think 8 is attractive?
haha.. maybe? never looked at things from that way.

Tell me something about 7.
she sat next to me during sec 4 for hist.. and she demands a birthday present from me although she never got me one herself.

Do you know any of 12's family?
not really.

What is 8's favourite?
phrase? DT da man. =p

What would you do when 18 confesses that he/she likes you?
*laughs* it'll never happen. wait.. come to think of it, its quite very weird. aie.. so not happening.

What language(s) does 15 speak?
english, malay and laughter.

Who is 9 going out with?
no one that i know of.

How old is 16 now?
17 years and 4 months

When was the last time you talked to 13?
~~yesterday~~friday, online.

What is 2's favourite band/singer?
wang lee hom. if im not wrong.

Would you ever date 4?
erm, i don't think so. but it would be very interesting, especially if i was a guy.

Would you ever date 7?
haha, maybe if i was a guy.

Is 5 single?
yes.

What is 10's last name?
EIO. probably the most unique surname for someone i know personally.

Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 11?
NO!!! no offence.. its just me.. haha.. =p

What school does 3 go to?
same as almost everyone else on the list.

Where does 6 live?
in my house. we're siblings you see. okok.. just kidding. bukit timah.

What is your favourite thing about 5?
can it be thingS? lameness,never ending msn convo-s and hilarious blog entries.

2006-05-06T15:59:00.000+08:00

i can't believe how stupid i was. how silly. how blind. i can't believe i swallowed everything he said. every single bloody thing he said.

there's no difference between me and them. after awhile, he looks back upon the times and doesn't know the difference between us. its like we're all blurred.. we all look alike all of a sudden. i was no different. i was just another one of "them". the same words, the same trust, the same ending.

i feel so stupid. so stupid.

2006-05-06T11:33:00.000+08:00

got this from crunch's blog. seems fun. =p

How does the world see me?
long juan feng - jay chou

Will I have a happy life?
cry - mandy moore

What do my friends really think of me?
my happy ending - avril lavinge

Do people secretly lust after me?
fallin' - alicia keys

How can I make myself happy?
i'll make a man out of you - disney

What should I do with my life?
hui zhi bu qu - melody

Will I ever have children?
more than words - extreme

What is some good advice for me?
missing you - energy

How will I be remembered?
cong kai shi dao xian zai - zhang xin zhe

What is my signature dancing song?
perfect love - daniel chan

What song will play at my funeral?
my little princess - dbsg

What type of women do I like?
yue lai yue ai - no name

What was yesterday like?
wu tian si ye - s.h.e

haha.. quite fun. dang.. shall do it again for fun. =p cheap thrill..

How does the world see me?
love love love - jolin tsai

Will I have a happy life?
ye zi - ah sang

What do my friends really think of me?
rang wo qu nuan - wang lee hom and cass phang (peng ling i think)

Do people secretly lust after me?
wa jie - jay chou

How can I make myself happy?
somebody to love (acapella version) - dbsg

What should I do with my life?
journey - corrine may

Will I ever have children?
bu de bu ai - wilber pan wei bo feat. xuan zi

What is some good advice for me?
bi wo xing fu - daniel chan

How will I be remembered?
show me your love - dbsg and super junior

What is my signature dancing song?
rising sun - dbsg

What song will play at my funeral?
angel - shinhwa

What type of women do I like?
wah joh - hero jaejoong

What was yesterday like?
can't help falling in love - a*teens

2006-04-30T12:24:00.000+08:00

LG M6100 PERVERT ON THE LOOSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! anyone and everyone with a lg m6100 had better run for cover. WITH YOUR PHONE. or else..................

LG M6100 lust.

im so dead.

edit: changed the song/mv below to one. i know its kinda small. but totally fits my mood now.

2006-04-29T22:36:00.000+08:00

i didn't know i would hurt. i mean.. all that talk about plans.

and on the day itself.. ta-dah. nothing.

i know i shouldn't be jealous.. i shouldn't be upset by what i see or read. but..urgh. who were the ones standing by you all this while? when they're pissed off with you or vice versa.. we're there. when they don't want you.. we're waiting at the sidelines for you to talk to us about what happened. but the moment they turn to you.. poof! you disappear. nevermind about us.

whatever. that's it. things haven't been looking too good.. or even good at all these days. its time to get back to certain things in life which require more of my attention.

and on a TOTALLY SEPARATE NOTE: my heart will officially die at 12 midnight, 29th april 2006.

unless of course mr prince-charming-to-be appears with *cough*something*cough.

otherwise.. i've been and will be listening to stuff like zai yi ci yong you, one, unforgivable sinner and the like for the rest of the night. and they will continue playing in my head when i enter dreamland tonight. *sniffs* sad sad life..

2006-04-23T12:15:00.000+08:00

here comes another im-such-an-unintellectual-idiot entry of mine.

i thought its quite unlikely to happen again. but here's to another weekend whereby there's no one at home except for me and the maid. and here i am, sitting before the comp, doing my work (or at least trying very hard to but being distracted like nobody's business, and ending up downloading/watching pretty boys clips) wondering when i should walk over to my parent's room to watch some tv. note: some doesn't really mean SOME. its just a way of saying.

anyway, i think my hair's too short. oh well.. shall wait and see the reactions of everyone tomorrow. though some population of rj has already seen it. but somehow majority doesn't seem to find much of a diff. but its really quite drastic what. i mean.. no more.. qiao4-ness.. no more crazy fringe that's as long as the rest of my hair.

crap. my fringe really is too short. and the reason being that it was a result of my stone-ness yesterday.

setting: at my hairdresser's, with UV (uncle vincent), probably the only hairdresser i really trust besides the guy at parkway 10 bucks thingie, cutting my hair while talking to me. which is what we usually do.

me: so yar, we only take our hcl 'o's. *me explaining rp, although i swear i explained it to him before when i last went to cut my hair after FAM. but nevermind. he's a really nice guy.*

UV: wah, so good. more relax lorh. *scissors go: snip snip snip. hands move quickly and hair continues falling*

me: haha.. its ok lah. *stares stonily into the mirror for awhile while UV picks up almost my entire left fringe*

UV: *silence falls as he snips off more than half of left fringe*

me: *continues staring in a very stoned fashion at the mirror*

UV: *trims a little here and there*

me: *kinda wakes up and stares at the mirror, this time for real, to see the progress* *senses something amiss in the instructions as to how to cut my hair* ah.. btw UV, i don't want my fringe to be too short..

UV: *pauses to digest what i've just said*

- long, torturous moments pass as i hope and pray that once again.. like all the zillion times before, i have spoken before the deed was done and UV will think for awhile before saying: ok. can lah. but not too long also right? i'll just lighten it abit.. yahdah yahdah -

me: or.. cut already?

UV: yar.. cut already.

me: *thinks: die*

UV: *plays with hair a little to show me my fringe's actual length now*

me: aie ok. nevermind then. *spends the next 10 seconds or so literally kicking my right foot with my left and vice versa*

- end of pok story of my haircut experience -

but oh well.. it wasn't that bad. i've had worse. so yep. shall wait to see the reactions of everyone (if there's gonna be any) on monday. i've had weird flashes throughout my stoning yesterday that somehow when im kinda asleep at the zcove on monday.. justina or someone will come and try to shoo me away thinking that im not from the og.

and due to the horrible stress i've been undergoing today after finding out i totally didn't touch on manageability and feasibility in my PW PI, i got down to doing it straightaway.

imagine the horror and unhappiness/reluctance i experienced when i opened the document to redo it, knowing perfectly well that i engineered it yesterday before i left to cut my hair, such that it was exactly 530 words, after which i happily changed the title to PI_final. heartbreak arh heartbreak.

oh well. so i got down to it. added some stuff.. took away some stuff. and i was quite sure that the stuff i added was minimal.

but as i've said earlier.. due to the stress i had undergone and the trauma i experience in having to even THINK about editing it, i somehow ended up hallucinating that the word limit was 300.

so once again, stretch your imagination and imagine the horror i experienced when i did a word count and found out that i had 465 words.

*and henceforth, a crazy editing of words begins*

i was totally on the verge of wailing before throwing myself out of the window before me, when after much much much much much editing, i found out i still had 461 words. which was like a horrible ONE HUNDRED AND ELEVEN/SIXTY-ONE words above my hallucinated word limit.

i almost died-ed.

but thank goodness i found out. now i dunno.. but i have too few words and i forgot which ones i took away. shall have to undo like crazy.

and so, this brings an end to another horribly unintellectual entry of mine.

2006-04-20T20:23:00.000+08:00

i just feel unhappy. i have no idea why. just really really unhappy. crap.

i wanna cry

2006-04-15T13:02:00.000+08:00

we studied this poem quite awhile ago.. kinda skimmed through it as compared to the other poems which we went through in greater detail. but this one kinda got stuck in my head. i've been wanting to type it out and post it but never really got down to doing it until today.

Sonnet II

Time does not bring relief; you all have lied
Who told me time would ease me of my pain!
I miss him in the weeping of the rain;
I want him at the shrinking of the tide;
The old snows melt from every mountain-side,
And last year's leaves are smoke in every lane;
But last year's bitter loving must remain
Heaped on my heart, and my old thoughts abide!
There are a hundred places where I fear
To go, - so with his memory they brim!
And entering with relief some quiet place
Where never fell his foot or shone his face
I say, 'There is no memory of him here!'
And so stand stricken, so remembering him.

- Edna St. Vinct Millay (1892-1950)

2006-04-14T17:17:00.000+08:00

yeo kz says that my entries are unintellectually stimulating.

*sniffs* break my heart. not that i care. =p

haha.. but anyway, i don't know. never really felt the need to have those really.. reflective or mind boggling entries. felt that it kinda defeats the purpose of a blog. i mean.. true a blog is meant to be a diary of some sort. but it IS an online diary after all. and it being online and not the kind you can touch and hold and is bound and in terms of physical appearances, is very gorgeous, means its meant to be read by other people. and when people come online.. especially these days, with so many things to stress about and *coughs* term papers to freak out about and deadlines to pull your hair over, why have something else which forces/is there to make you think? or even for those reflective entries. when they're not about people or things that people know.. then they're usually about things that happened to you or things that are bothering you, and people don't really know of. so why blog about things that people don't know about when its meant for them to read? and should they know about it, at times it means that that certain thing is bothering you. and there's this really high chance that the person who reads cares enough to read, so why make another person worried? isn't one person being unhappy enough as it is?

ok. ignore all this if it doesn't make sense. which will probably be the case. blah.

but thanks to the comment by yeo kz, yours truly who really isn't a very intellectual person is very tempted to post entire gp/hist/lit essays up here. to show that there's some intellectual-ness in me. albeit a tiny bit which is so close to being non-existent.

2006-04-13T19:58:00.000+08:00

dum di dum~~~!!! haha.. i was totally tempted to post this entry last night. but oh well.. due to certain unforeseen circumstances. but anyway.. here it is today.

YAYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!! im done with all essays!!!!

lit ge: check.

lit PC: just check.

HA. HA. HA. i rule the world.

my ass.

but anyway.. so yes. that was part of yesterday's entry. today.. i take it all back. cause rolly just announced that we have our hist term paper coming to us really soon.

best.

i cry.

this is so saddening. and i realize that i use the phrase "i (feel in blank with certain phrases)" quite often these days.

especially at a certain y kz. just a few seconds ago, for the nth time today, i typed "ha. ha. ha. i laff at youuuuuuu." and happily clicked enter.

and if he's reading this now.. for the "n+1"th time..

HA. HA. HA. I LAFF AT YOUUUUUUUUUUU.

=p

sorry.. i just HAD to do that. you can piss me off or drink from my waterbottle again without my permission on monday.

2006-04-02T16:23:00.000+08:00

there. another weekend spent doing history term paper. and at around this time, alcina's nick changes and becomes: .;*alcina··· [DONE DONE DONE!!] (blah blah blah.. continue with the rest of her current nick).

yes. ok. im such a procrastinating pok. shall get down to my final conclusion and edit. i have like.. 20 plus words before i hit the word limit. best. *jabs self*

2006-03-13T20:22:00.001+08:00

urgh. i think im falling sick.

about 11 hours or so before i fly fly fly away *yes, i know off's the right word but i just like using away. what're you gonna do about it?* .. and i haven't packed. save me.

i really think im falling sick.

so anywayyyy.. a certain someone decided to tag on my tagboard below.. *coughs*

10 Mar 06, 23:01
xm: hmm.. i miss the way things were in sec 3. now everytime i see you you're like with a guy. hahaha. =p

what???!!! so not true lah. i swear its cause you tagged at such an ungodly hour.. that's why your tag was so.. ungodly. erm. that didn't make sense but nevermind.

no. im not always hanging out with a guy. contrary to xm's opinion. so there. urgh. ok. im talking crap. better go pack soon. will be back in 4 days.

p.s: miao.. what did you miss about sec 3? why sec 3 not 4? haha.. trust me.. loads of us miss 411.

edit: i realized doing my constipated-looking smiley screws up the html thingum. sigh. sadness.

2006-03-05T13:21:00.000+08:00

got this quiz from nings' blog..

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18 and find line four

.. that it surely indicates that each technological innovation will be.. (the cold war: past and present by richard crockatt and steve smith)

2. stretch your left arm out as far

.. fulscap pad

3. what is the last thing you watched on TV

.. think think think. >.< some variety showwww??? taiwanese??

4.without looking, guess what time it is

.. 1.15.

5. now look at the clock. what is the actual time

.. 1.26

6.with the exception of the computer, what can you hear?

.. neighbours laughing.. talking. construction work going on. neighbour opening gate.

7. when did you last step outside? what were you doing?

.. erm.. last night? to my uncle's house warming.

8. before you started this survey what did you look at?

.. nings' blog. =)

9. what are you wearing?

.. white shirt and shorts.

10. did you dream last night?

.. something really weird. so weird i don't really remember. but it had something to do with the air-con being too warm at regular intervals in the dream. yar. something like that. i THINK..

11. when did you last laugh?

.. just now when i was discussing my sleeping times as compared to some 8 and 9 year olds.

12. what is on the walls of the room you are in?

.. nothing. besides the switches and all. and erm.. air-cons.

13. seen anything weird lately?

.. loads in school. can't remember exact ones. i think i have a really short-term memory >.<

14. what do you think of this quiz?

.. interestingly different from others. but otherwise.. dummmmm..

15. what is the last film you saw?

.. crap. season for love i think? sigh.. i have such a sad life. i wanna watch movies!!!!

16. if you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?

.. a hard disk. first thing first. oh!! and dong bang concert tickets! and erm.. creative vision m? and erm.. i don't know. ohhhh!!! and loads and loads of vcds! and a dvd/vcd player cause i think my current one's weird. either that or my liang jing ru si lu dvd's weird. so either or. or maybe.. both. yeppers.

17. tell me something about you that i don't know

.. my comp's dying from too many dong bang things so i WANT a portable hard disk ASAP!!!

18. if you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?

.. unhappiness.

19, do you like to dance?

.. sort of. though i can't exactly. >.<

20. George W Bush... american?

.. stupid american.

21. imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?

.. dawn. =)

22. imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?

.. never really thought about it. i have noooooo idea. ok. wait i think i do. but it depends.

23. have you ever considered living abroad?

.. YES!!! UNI!!!!

24. what do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?

.. welcome.

25. 4 people who must do this in their journal

anyone who's about as bored as me? i dunno.. its up to you.. *shrugs*

waiting waiting waiting for the beautiful life mv to finish downloading so i can pee in my pants and gush my guts out. p and p.. g and g.. i just couldn't resist. =p

...

...

HISTORYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-03-04T10:49:00.000+08:00

its just weird how that boy can cheer me up so easily. i really shouldn't be calling him "boy". not when he really is older than me. and no.. its not the whole estella-pip thing.

anyway, down to work. history. *makes a face* here goes nothing.

well at least im on the comp so there's that boy to cheer me up. ^__^

2006-02-28T20:49:00.000+08:00

are you trying to find out how much i like you?

do you want to know how much i really love you?

2006-02-26T12:03:00.000+08:00

what's probably been 2 crazy, sleep-deprived, rush here rush there rush everywhere, coming home late, packed schedule weeks are over. and more seem to be coming up. with tests and deadlines added on.

somehow, it will pass. i'll live through it. if not completely alive and kicking.. then half alive and crawling. but still alive.

but i realize after awhile, you don't have time for so many things, and it gets so hard to get things done that you start to compromise. that's not what i want, but what can i do? and i guess i've been getting moody and basically.. unhappy more often. don't know why. time just seems to fly.. so why am i remaining in this.. mood which was so light centuries ago? hope this makes sense.

diary-x died. sort of realized the importance it had been to people after hearing roy speak about it, and late last night.. the discussion with neeti. for now.. i shall just hug blogger. i really need to be more grateful about the things around me. >.<

2006-02-17T21:41:00.000+08:00

thanks to the introduction of a new cca in my life, i would like to say that i've begun to take more notice of the pianos in school. which.. just by looking at a couple.. i can safely but sadly conclude that they are in a horrendous state.

who the shit throws curry puffs into pianos?? idiots. no wonder the school's so reluctant about getting new pianos.. i mean the question of whether we have enough funds aside.. but oh well.. the whole discussion about pianos/treatment of pianos and concerts has been quite interesting.. quoting a reply..

'I know that we would like the pianos to be tuned, however, tunning 10 pianos twice a year is not a small sum of money. Moreover, some of the pianos tune and dun tune also no difference. Heat or dun heat also no difference. Half the strings are broken already anyway. '

its relatively sad.. but here's it for you. *shrugs* haha.. but its sort of amusing in a heartache way..

2006-02-12T18:59:00.000+08:00

ok.. i admit to having tweaked the answers ever so slightly. in my defence.. i can only say that i DO like tri-angle. yep yep. ok. about the tweaking of answers, maybe not so slightly. but slightly such that its to changmin in the bahamas. and not micky in a sleigh.. *coughs*.. hero jaejoong in my backyard.. *eh??!* u-know in a shopping mall *whaa...?!* or xiah in his family home *coughs* *erm..... its.... original* >.<

but crap.. why 2019??? nooooooooooooooooooo...

dum dee dum..2016.. but at least its 3 years earlier. oh yes.. and its changmin. sea world. >.< *dies of happiness which will never come true* but a relatively bad one was xiah.. in a parking lot or something. and another was micky in a treehouse. to which i can only say.. erm.... ohkayyyy.

2006-02-11T10:46:00.000+08:00

the best thing to do now is to busy myself.. to let myself drown from everything. then when you're on the verge of death.. that alphabet and the number before it won't matter so much anymore.

2006-02-10T10:36:00.000+08:00

worried worried worried. about anything and everything.

and now even dong bang's drive can't cheer me up although i thought i went through worse times than this and lived through them thanks to this song. >.<

dang. i just feel horrible. and no one probably understands except bren.. cause urgh. its relatively screwed.

4 more hours to go.. and whether or not i live till saturday with my head firmly intact on my neck depends on that piece of paper and 2 alphabets/numbers printed on that piece of paper.

2006-02-10T10:33:00.000+08:00

worried worried worried. about anything and everything.

and now even dong bang's drive can't cheer me up although i thought i went through worse times than this and lived through them thanks to this song. >.<>that. i just feel horrible. and no one probably understands except bren.. cause urgh. its relatively screwed.

4 more hours to go.. and whether or not i live till saturday with my head firmly intact on my neck depends on that piece of paper and 2 alphabets/numbers printed on that piece of paper.

2006-02-01T22:03:00.000+08:00

i guess im really scared of losing it. today's talk just totally got me all scared and worried once again.

its just scary.. really scary if you suddenly lose what you've been working towards for such a long long time. and which you've put in so much effort into. and wished so much for. it just scares me. i really don't wanna lose sight of it. im really really scared. crap.

2006-01-31T18:30:00.000+08:00

dum di dum. i decided my cousin has good taste. uh huh uh huh. *nods* oh yeah. *laughs*

i wanna bring his playlist home. ok.. i have most/all of the songs he has.. but mine also has some.. not so good songs which aren't really needed everytime. and somehow he/his comp shuffles it such that all the songs i wanna hear are played. dang im jealous. =p but nevermind. im sure as his cousin i get certain.. privileges. like using his comp when he decides not to play warcraft anymore. dum.. shall get him and the guys in my og and of course my bro. i think he plays. oh yep.. he does. i'll never forget MR night when justina and i went to the comp lab due to utter boredom/freaked-outness cause they were playing the exorcist in the hall. oh yes. the whole place was like a stock market. haha.. but the guys won in the end. yep.

shopping today. had lotsa fun with bren.. looking at earrings *which i can't buy* necklaces *which i don't wanna buy* and rings *which i can't be bothered to wear.. therefore i don't buy them*

i think my accessories-life is quite sad. nevermind.. i shall be bren's accessories consultant. if she wants to hire me that is. then i can add "accessories consultant" on to my _____ consultant list. =)

meanwhile, sianing around. what's new? stud. dev. tomorrow. its so much more fun typing it out in short-form. it sounds sorta.. weird when you say it out though. oh yes.. shall go home early.. hopefully, and pack my bag. my NEW bag for tomorrow. haha.. i managed to not buy the crumpler, which is really not worth it.. being ex. and totally not unique. half the world has one or more crumplers, which if you study econs.. as i have *is very proud of self though knowledge of econs is probably around the amount you have when you're just 3 weeks into proper lessons of which half you're mentally begging the lecturer to save you from the evil clutches of dreamland.. in short.. not paying attention* ok. that sentence was really long. so yes.. anyway, about econs. its totally not worth it. the availability and scarcity totally doesn't translate to the price they're charging for the bag. that and the designs. the slightly nicer *ok.. im being picky and evil..* or the NICE ones.. despite the fact that they look better than the rest, just don't match the prices.

dum di dum. concluding the about more than half the paragraph above, i've gotta new bag. =) which hopefully will be my.. erm.. good luck charm? and make tomorrow more live-able. for both me and bren. >.<>

2006-01-28T22:52:00.000+08:00

dum.. since its gonna be a new [ chinese ] year really soon. in about an hour's time.. shall just not blog about those unhappy stuff.. so yep..

happy new year to all you guys!

2006-01-26T20:26:00.000+08:00

*wails* why can't ysi just lemme download this stupid episode of onryu??!!!! why?????? *sky falls from above*

this is highly traumitizing.

but.. wait. this episode's on xiah's birthday. which he celebrates with the boys singing him a birthday song in.. english. and not the korean one which i have no idea what the lyrics are about. and sounds like some.. oldish song or love song. or something.

ok, come to think of it, im probably just watching it cause there's changmin inside. and edits have said that they were super cute inside. not like they aren't to begin with. =p but yes. so onryu here i come. just PLEASE lemme finish downloading it instead of stopping at like a torturous 60+ mb!

i think im sick. and cabs are evil. *sniffs* so i went home, ate my miserable soggy instant noodles, attempted to do history.. and basically ended up crashing head down on my notes and spending the next 3 hours knocked out cold. shall make sure i sleep early tonight. chinese new year's coming, and archery tryouts just got cancelled. *mumbles and grumbles* this is so unfair.

so yep.. it'll be sheer madness in about.. 45 hours. and it'll continue for the next 24 hours or so.

2006-01-25T19:15:00.000+08:00

school's been crazy. and i've been getting less and less sleep. which of course results in some mood swings here and there.

ok. maybe not here and there.

here there everywhere?

something like that.

basically the week's been crazy.. emotional rollercoaster. had to make some decisions, return to reality, know that some things really ARE impossible.

but oh well.. i'll live through this year. yep. i will. with my nice class and my could-possibly-be-some-long-lost-relative classmate shawn.. funky og.. dearest bro *gosh.. im gushing about him 24/7*

og outing on friday!!! wheeeeee! therefore, i conclude that i'll live through 2006. oh yes i will.

and bensen's crazy. and class enemy number 1 now. 44/50. ARE YOU CRAZY??!!! and its a freaking diagnostic! our first ever GP essay!!!! *resists urge to strangle bensen's guts out of him*

2006-01-21T14:10:00.000+08:00

i think *sniffs* im falling sick. *blows nose*

crap. im so sleeping early tonight.

and im sorry to all those who've been asking/bugging/hoping. there will be no hilton trip. cry.

*blows nose*

sigh. the craziness of it all. i mean.. what's the point of it? ok. maybe there IS a point in it afterall. but are you ready for what's gonna happen in about exactly 2 years? the tears.. the hurt.. the unwillingness.. everything!

i don't know. but what's happening around's just basically acting as a warning to me. no way is this happening to me. no way.

and nu ren and.. erm.. rh and erm.. nu ren/rh's friend. sorry for yesterday.. in the library crap. i should learn to be stronger.

dang yi zhen feng chui lai feng zhen fei xiang tian kong
wei le ni er qi dao er zhu fu er gan dong
zhong yu ni shen ying xiao shi zai ren hai jing tou
cai fa xian xiao zhe ku zui tong

2006-01-17T17:15:00.000+08:00

i haven't been making much sense in recent entries. so until i can sort out of my thoughts/blog properly.. *shuts up*

2006-01-15T17:45:00.000+08:00

*ponders*

ok. i should go do maths. and learn my complete the square thingum. this is so saddening. seraphist!!! still waiting for your poster. i don't mean to bug you. but it just always appears this way. *excuses excuses*

oh and another reason i've thought up for my current boredom would be cause i can't download anymore clips for me to fall in love with for today. running out of comp space. >.<

i've fallen in love with them again for the 3rd time today.

2006-01-15T17:38:00.000+08:00

im bored. nu ren's gone to sleep so she can do maths later.

i wanna sleep too.

but i keep thinking of the BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEG crab im gonna be eating later and i suddenly don't feel like eating though im really bloated now.

there'd better be crab later.

im dum dum dum-ly crab-crazy.

and i wanna watch memoirs. but seems like no class outing's in sight.

i like my class btw. we bridge and mahjong like crazy, thanks to alcina. =)

and everyone's learning how to bridge/mahjong/talk nonsense. the guys learn fast. so proud of them. =)

dad just screwed up his sudoku puzzle. and he was so pissed he choked while crumpling up the piece of paper. he then proceeds to pronounce that sudoku is bad for one's health.

hmmmm. so back to school stuff.

archery. hummmmm. taking it up for reasons which include me liking it and some.. comparatively weird reasons. but nevermind. im sure i'll be able to think in the right frame of mind soon.

oh yes.. and im being *cough* quoting someone.. og-orientated so i decided to add everyone on the contact list to msn. but its been.. weird.

i should stop using the word but. but. butt. dum dum dum.

this is so random.

randomness is a sign of boredom. so there.

i should go back to maths. but.. no wait.. HOWEVER.. i have completely forgotten the complete square thingum or something to that effect, so i don't know how to solve my equation.

this feels so very back to school.

ok. you guys can start linking to this blog now. i mean.. those who i haven't allowed to link previously.

2006-01-15T17:14:00.000+08:00

i should stop zi lian-ing/fic lian-ing my own fic. cause that's bad. and horrible. and disgusting.

dang.

*mutters to self* just because it has some of the prettiest/cutest/most lovable boys i've laid my eyes/ears on, it doesn't mean i have to fall in love with them over and over again while reading the fic i write about them. >.<

dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.................

2006-01-14T10:59:00.000+08:00

you chose to miss out. you chose to disappear. you chose to commit but you never turned up. you chose to let me believe and think that you were gonna stick to your words. you chose to put someone's hopes so high up and later you chose to drop everything down, with no warning whatsoever. you chose to let everything start but now you just leave it hanging in the air.

from now on, what happens is none of my responsibility.

edit: oh man!!!! sooooo mushyyy!!! but so you, jason. =p haha, and we love you too!!!! remember about the hairband business!!! ^__^

on a slightly sadder note, as in sad, pathetic kinda sad, i now know what the whole point of dota is.. the aim and all and basically characters and rough outline. and.. erm.. what you press to attack someone. but i still don't know how to PLAY!!!!! >.<

2006-01-10T12:00:00.000+08:00

sian sian sian. and im falling sick. urgh.

*sniffs*

ok.. i really have no energy/time whatsoever to update. dang.. i never knew it would be this busy.

and i hate having to feel guilty.. >.<

edit: and changmin.. no. you do not dump a brand new nice ipod (nano?) on the floor just like that you idiot. but nevermind.. at least its not ipod video. =p

and.. love.. lob? eh??

urgh. im not making much sense am i? just blame it on the horrible running nose. *sniffs*

2006-01-07T10:46:00.000+08:00

*coughs*

sorry.. was just having a little fun in the previous entry.

though part of it's probably true.. i WAS panicky. or maybe i wasn't. probably screwed up my sleeping times.

ended up sleepless till about 3. and after some checks.. i found out 3 was a rather *cough*in*cough* time to sleep on 2nd jan. =)

whatever. but anyway.. orientation's over so yep. crazy girls we had in our group.. laughing like crazy.. about the boys.. about lame jokes.. about the amount of food we ate + pigging out sugar high. melody and her: let's take a picture!! jason's "IM SEXY" which the whole world would see whenever he turned while dancing on stage. the guys.. basically.. gay. =p

a traffic accident outside rj involving a cab.. a dark blue car and... well..... us.

oh and its no joke having your entire face covered in blue body paint. that and more than half your arms. please let my ocean's eleven shirt be alright. >.<>

THE BOX. were-rabbit. crazy cheers which lyrics i had no idea about.. and therefore just basically mimed chewing on a piece of gum. nevermind that. late nights. REALLY late nights. learning that walking along the canal home isn't THAT bad after all. i mean.. it doesn't stink as much nowadays. i hope.

oh yes. and living without downloading a single dong bang thing over the week. *coughs*

actually i lived without dong bang the whole week. save.. suaning sheena whenever i see her with "jung yunho" which i say in a voice which.. apparently according to sheena herself is low and vibrate-y. *raises eyebrows* erm yar.. i supposedly lost it towards the end of last year but somehow i got it back. and erm.. save some ranting here and there.. gushing.. but REALLY minimal.. mistaking a MR group's name as jaeho. *coughs* xiang's wonderful piece of news which has brought our hopes as high as it can ever be. but yes.. that aside.. it's been a relatively dong bang free week. =) *is rather proud of self*

oh yes. i can live without them. i SO can. so THERE.

and with the same amount of determination.. i shall not eat the round piece of egg yolk on my plate now. but then again.. what determination's needed for this?

that didn't really make sense. nevermind. im sleepy.

2006-01-02T20:32:00.000+08:00

school's starting.. school's starting.. school's starting.. school's starting............

SCHOOL'S STARTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*runs around like a headless chicken*

2006-01-01T23:32:00.000+08:00

okie dok.. got started on my new fic.. .: love : hasayaki :. so yep. lotsa support needed since im trying out new characters and im not exactly.. "established" in that fanbase. so yes. oh yes.. and its no longer = d.e.j.a = v.u = thanks to my laziness. dejavu. short and sweet. =)

so yep.. shall be posting my chapter up soon. it's been rotting and growing in my brain for ages already. =p

2005-12-31T21:23:00.000+08:00

ok. a couple more hours before the new year.

2006.

*deep breath in*

oh dang. im getting breathe and breath confused. and thanks to all that trying to decide which is correct.. the word now seems totally foreign to me. oh well.

soooo... anyway, as most new year tradition requires.. here's my list of.. erm.. resolutions.

ok. first lemme define resolutions. they're hard to fulfil. which is why we call them resolutions. so yes. the few i'll state will probably be close to mission impossible.. but never say never. *wags finger* =p

1. find *cough*cm in my room/the house.
2. find *cough*js in miao's room/her house.
3. find *cough*yh in sheena's room/hostel/home in malaysia and convince him that they're both a pair made in heaven due to their perverted-ness. yes. then me and miao will then have a teeny weeny chance. >.<

so there. oh yes.. and one more!

4. totally turn into a theory genius and pass my theory exam next year with flying very colourful colours.
5. totally turn into a piano prodigy and start playing my exam pieces like how the composers played them, BUT.. that also means that my examinor has to love them.
6. oh yes. that and my scales. and sightreading.. lemme somehow see that piece 12 months before i actually play it, and somehow i'll have this HUGE inkling that it'll be the piece im gonna be given so i'll totally practise and rock at it. and erm.. aural too. please.. don't let my voice like totally break 3 weeks before.

*pause*

joking.

nevermind. super cold.

and yes.. last but not least..

7. lemme just get over feeling nervous in the exam room/hall!!! for goodness sake! >.<

there. if you're having this totally incredulous look on your face now.. please scroll up and re-read my definition of resolutions cause you seriously didn't read it properly the first time round. shame on you. tsk. *wags finger*

ok.. 'nuff of that. updated r.a.i.n and i'll be started my new fic.. tomorrow? hope so.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and for those schooling.. yes. despite all the dread and unhappiness and oh-im-so-gonna-die-this-yearness, we WILL survive this school year. like we have in the past few years. so there.

edit: oh yes. and before the first day of 2006 is over or when the whole "HAPPY NEW YEAR!" mood is gone.. could i just add another resolution?

actually.. it's not mine. but.. its quite impossible for ME to achieve. so yes.

let's see.. number.. eight.

8. could changmin please change his hairstyle? pretty please?

cause the current one's.. *draws huge X-s in the air with arms*

2005-12-28T11:05:00.000+08:00

the hols are ending. like.. soon. really soon. >.<>

ok. if everything goes well, i'll probably end off my holidays.. like officially end my hols with 2 movies. and a shopping trip. where im supposed to get clothes. which is a maybe. but a MUST will probably be referring to the trip to the vcd shop where i'll totally stock up on my vcds and consider buying full house. after which.. i'll go home.. stare at the vcds and hope and pray real hard that the first three months are totally relaxed. shucks. just talking about this, and im missing orchard already. another wonderful example of not knowing how to treasure something till its gone. shi qu cai dong de zhen xi. tsk.

but oh well.. new year's coming up. will be back with resolutions.. if i can think of any. oh yes. i think i have a couple.. =p

back to serious stuff. SCHOOL BUS TO SCHOOL NEXT YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >.<

2005-12-10T10:04:00.000+08:00

ok. i finally managed to update r.a.i.n =) weird how the more i think about it, the more i feel that maybe having the author's note isn't that important anymore. like T. said.. coincidences are inevitable. so.. *shrugs* oh well.. i'll see how it goes.

2005-12-08T17:49:00.000+08:00

ok. i really really pissed off. urgh. really need to chill for now. but there'll definitely be a warning message posted in my soon-to-become update. meanwhile, just a copy and paste from my thank-you note.

thanks for all the support. of which.. speaking of support, the things i've been seeing have been really unnerving. i would think that some things are more than pure coincidence.. and the same style.. practically the same words, save a few changes here and there to fit the plot in question, are used. i think it's quite obvious what im refering to. what else matters most to an author around here? it might differ from person to person, but i should think that no one would like this happening to them. if you wish to plagurize, please at least leave a note and maybe credits? at the very least, maybe a comment at the original author's comments page to say that you've read his/her fic and like the idea or style.. or something! but no! i don't see any of this. its just grab and go. or rather.. in technological terms, copy paste and ta-ta. no thank you-s no nothing. and what's worse.. you completely ruin the original work, by spoiling the whole effect with your grammatical and vocab errors.

by the way.. just in case some are gonna say.. "you copy and paste also what!" yes. i copy and paste. but i copy and paste MY OWN WORK! these are words which i've thought of for a certain effect, sentences which i conjure on my own relying on my brain cells and inspiration, which i highly doubt you'll be able to find anywhere else. its. MY. OWN. WORK. not other's! im just really pissed. and to add on to the grammatical and vocab errors, you use sTiCkY caps!!! which i don't happen to adore. and when used in a piece of work which contains things taken from MINE.. it makes me want to slap someone.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-12-03T20:10:00.000+08:00

dum dum dum. ok.. im getting my dad to do a live report about what's going on for the SEA games table tennis doubles finals if im not wrong. yep. nation pride here.. but at the same time, gotta do some stuff online here. time's tight. i've got until.. 9? after which i'll be watching she diao.. then half an hour before it ends.. gonna be switching channels to watch abit of america's sweethearts with my sis. which i've watched at least 3 times. and i still remember what happened and all. but dang.. i can't be bothered.

i really really hope they'll get the 40 golds.. which was their prediction if im not wrong. really want them to. not really nation pride speaking here.. more of, i don't wanna see this big hoo-haa over why it was a disappointment.. or if it wasn't how everyone fought hard to get the golds. i mean, disappointment happens every now and then, so why keep writing about it? then they'll have some ministers talking about it, how we'll do better next time.. i mean.. seriously!

ok. nevermind about that. *shuts* dum di dum.. did some room spring-cleaning. la la la. proud of myself. and it just felt super good moving all the books to my sister's room/bed. 'cept there're still the old notes belonging to my sis and me left. which my mum got me to keep for the time being.. cause otherwise my sis's room will be in a rather horrible state. which i have to agree with.. though its not like it isn't already. but yep.. me being nice to her, by keeping these things, it's a really rare thing. so i just sort of adviced her to rejoice. while she still can. cause after awhile i'll decide to dump them all over to her when i need to take my sister's jc stuff. *gags*

ok. back to table tennis. they won another set. another gold tonight.. please. >.<

edit: we won! wooohooo!!! =p

2005-12-01T18:04:00.000+08:00

gosh. its a wonder how people change from primary school on to secondary school on to jc. goodness.

ok. so stop before i start some serious gossiping which isn't very good for either party.

i will.. erm.. xun zhao wo de innocent. =p gosh. did i ever mention that i love the dong bang boys??

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