deja-vu v.2 [ rain... falling in my heart

Thursday, October 13, 2005

come come come. i shall once again rant about random stuff which probably no one will have any idea what im talking about.

random meaning.. random. yar. me. im fine. today i was fine. yesterday.. i think i was fine. so on the whole, im fine. thank you very much.

so yes. blah. ok. so i spent a usually-considered crazy amount of time today, plugged onto my discman listening to dong bang.. doing my homework. besides the nice acapella noises and music coming from my earplugs.. it was complete.. solitude? yar. ok. the whole thing felt quite peaceful. but i don't think im at peace with the world. *pauses* *thinks* ok. i think this has reached a point where i don't know what the pok im saying. but yar.

so anyway, i've switched off my wmp. yes. cause i plan to sleep.

i wish.

erm. yar. but nevermind about wmp. i now live on gom player. ok. at least a relatively large part of my life relies on gom player. gosh. and i just discovered it yesterday. which means i haven't exactly been living a proper life so far. geez. wonder how many more things there are for me to discover. this entry is becoming even more complicated and un-understandable. even to me. die.

but nevermind. so yar. gom player is like.. nice. but of course.. its nice only cause i get to see those pretty boys on it. wanted to say MY pretty boys. but i shall refrain. i've heard what others who seriously DO think this way have done to their peers. *shudders* once again, i only view them as my idols. yes. and im fine if they get attached. or married. or have a nice girlfriend. only, of course, unless she's some.. weirded hu li jing. then i'll just not like them anymore. ok. some people should get what im saying. i hope? >.<

and next. speaking about peace. please!!!! geez. *pauses* wait. the following has nothing to do with anything's that happened recently! i swear! not that anything happened recently. but yar. so back to the topic. we have our 'o's too, thank you very much. so seriously i don't see why you guys hate us that much. trust me, its not something we love on our part. sometimes you just have to look at things from a different p.o.v. as atticus said in tkmb, "step into their shoes and walk around in them" or something to that effect. sorry, but its been 2 years since i read that text. and i still remember it, which is quite a wonder. but it was a good quote. now, we remember things like, "it wasn't what you hoped it to be, but it exists. be thankful for small mercies" something to that effect. and its amazing how many times i can use it. yes. so my point being, try understanding yar? everything's really not that easy as you think it to be. really.

ok. random ramblings done. shall pack my bag now. toddles to the world.

the rain poured at 9:47 PM

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