deja-vu v.2 [ rain... falling in my heart

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

dum di dum. i decided my cousin has good taste. uh huh uh huh. *nods* oh yeah. *laughs*

i wanna bring his playlist home. ok.. i have most/all of the songs he has.. but mine also has some.. not so good songs which aren't really needed everytime. and somehow he/his comp shuffles it such that all the songs i wanna hear are played. dang im jealous. =p but nevermind. im sure as his cousin i get certain.. privileges. like using his comp when he decides not to play warcraft anymore. dum.. shall get him and the guys in my og and of course my bro. i think he plays. oh yep.. he does. i'll never forget MR night when justina and i went to the comp lab due to utter boredom/freaked-outness cause they were playing the exorcist in the hall. oh yes. the whole place was like a stock market. haha.. but the guys won in the end. yep.

shopping today. had lotsa fun with bren.. looking at earrings *which i can't buy* necklaces *which i don't wanna buy* and rings *which i can't be bothered to wear.. therefore i don't buy them*

i think my accessories-life is quite sad. nevermind.. i shall be bren's accessories consultant. if she wants to hire me that is. then i can add "accessories consultant" on to my _____ consultant list. =)

meanwhile, sianing around. what's new? stud. dev. tomorrow. its so much more fun typing it out in short-form. it sounds sorta.. weird when you say it out though. oh yes.. shall go home early.. hopefully, and pack my bag. my NEW bag for tomorrow. haha.. i managed to not buy the crumpler, which is really not worth it.. being ex. and totally not unique. half the world has one or more crumplers, which if you study econs.. as i have *is very proud of self though knowledge of econs is probably around the amount you have when you're just 3 weeks into proper lessons of which half you're mentally begging the lecturer to save you from the evil clutches of dreamland.. in short.. not paying attention* ok. that sentence was really long. so yes.. anyway, about econs. its totally not worth it. the availability and scarcity totally doesn't translate to the price they're charging for the bag. that and the designs. the slightly nicer *ok.. im being picky and evil..* or the NICE ones.. despite the fact that they look better than the rest, just don't match the prices.

dum di dum. concluding the about more than half the paragraph above, i've gotta new bag. =) which hopefully will be my.. erm.. good luck charm? and make tomorrow more live-able. for both me and bren. >.<>

the rain poured at 6:30 PM

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Saturday, January 28, 2006

dum.. since its gonna be a new [ chinese ] year really soon. in about an hour's time.. shall just not blog about those unhappy stuff.. so yep..

happy new year to all you guys!

the rain poured at 10:52 PM

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Thursday, January 26, 2006

*wails* why can't ysi just lemme download this stupid episode of onryu??!!!! why?????? *sky falls from above*

this is highly traumitizing.

but.. wait. this episode's on xiah's birthday. which he celebrates with the boys singing him a birthday song in.. english. and not the korean one which i have no idea what the lyrics are about. and sounds like some.. oldish song or love song. or something.

ok, come to think of it, im probably just watching it cause there's changmin inside. and edits have said that they were super cute inside. not like they aren't to begin with. =p but yes. so onryu here i come. just PLEASE lemme finish downloading it instead of stopping at like a torturous 60+ mb!

i think im sick. and cabs are evil. *sniffs* so i went home, ate my miserable soggy instant noodles, attempted to do history.. and basically ended up crashing head down on my notes and spending the next 3 hours knocked out cold. shall make sure i sleep early tonight. chinese new year's coming, and archery tryouts just got cancelled. *mumbles and grumbles* this is so unfair.

so yep.. it'll be sheer madness in about.. 45 hours. and it'll continue for the next 24 hours or so.

the rain poured at 8:26 PM

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Wednesday, January 25, 2006

school's been crazy. and i've been getting less and less sleep. which of course results in some mood swings here and there.

ok. maybe not here and there.

here there everywhere?

something like that.

basically the week's been crazy.. emotional rollercoaster. had to make some decisions, return to reality, know that some things really ARE impossible.

but oh well.. i'll live through this year. yep. i will. with my nice class and my could-possibly-be-some-long-lost-relative classmate shawn.. funky og.. dearest bro *gosh.. im gushing about him 24/7*

og outing on friday!!! wheeeeee! therefore, i conclude that i'll live through 2006. oh yes i will.

and bensen's crazy. and class enemy number 1 now. 44/50. ARE YOU CRAZY??!!! and its a freaking diagnostic! our first ever GP essay!!!! *resists urge to strangle bensen's guts out of him*

the rain poured at 7:15 PM

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Saturday, January 21, 2006

i think *sniffs* im falling sick. *blows nose*

crap. im so sleeping early tonight.

and im sorry to all those who've been asking/bugging/hoping. there will be no hilton trip. cry.

*blows nose*

sigh. the craziness of it all. i mean.. what's the point of it? ok. maybe there IS a point in it afterall. but are you ready for what's gonna happen in about exactly 2 years? the tears.. the hurt.. the unwillingness.. everything!

i don't know. but what's happening around's just basically acting as a warning to me. no way is this happening to me. no way.

and nu ren and.. erm.. rh and erm.. nu ren/rh's friend. sorry for yesterday.. in the library crap. i should learn to be stronger.

dang yi zhen feng chui lai feng zhen fei xiang tian kong
wei le ni er qi dao er zhu fu er gan dong
zhong yu ni shen ying xiao shi zai ren hai jing tou
cai fa xian xiao zhe ku zui tong

the rain poured at 2:10 PM

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Tuesday, January 17, 2006

i haven't been making much sense in recent entries. so until i can sort out of my thoughts/blog properly.. *shuts up*

the rain poured at 5:15 PM

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Sunday, January 15, 2006

*ponders*

ok. i should go do maths. and learn my complete the square thingum. this is so saddening. seraphist!!! still waiting for your poster. i don't mean to bug you. but it just always appears this way. *excuses excuses*

oh and another reason i've thought up for my current boredom would be cause i can't download anymore clips for me to fall in love with for today. running out of comp space. >.<

i've fallen in love with them again for the 3rd time today.

the rain poured at 5:45 PM

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im bored. nu ren's gone to sleep so she can do maths later.

i wanna sleep too.

but i keep thinking of the BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEG crab im gonna be eating later and i suddenly don't feel like eating though im really bloated now.

there'd better be crab later.

im dum dum dum-ly crab-crazy.

and i wanna watch memoirs. but seems like no class outing's in sight.

i like my class btw. we bridge and mahjong like crazy, thanks to alcina. =)

and everyone's learning how to bridge/mahjong/talk nonsense. the guys learn fast. so proud of them. =)

dad just screwed up his sudoku puzzle. and he was so pissed he choked while crumpling up the piece of paper. he then proceeds to pronounce that sudoku is bad for one's health.

hmmmm. so back to school stuff.

archery. hummmmm. taking it up for reasons which include me liking it and some.. comparatively weird reasons. but nevermind. im sure i'll be able to think in the right frame of mind soon.

oh yes.. and im being *cough* quoting someone.. og-orientated so i decided to add everyone on the contact list to msn. but its been.. weird.

i should stop using the word but. but. butt. dum dum dum.

this is so random.

randomness is a sign of boredom. so there.

i should go back to maths. but.. no wait.. HOWEVER.. i have completely forgotten the complete square thingum or something to that effect, so i don't know how to solve my equation.

this feels so very back to school.

ok. you guys can start linking to this blog now. i mean.. those who i haven't allowed to link previously.

the rain poured at 5:38 PM

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i should stop zi lian-ing/fic lian-ing my own fic. cause that's bad. and horrible. and disgusting.

dang.

*mutters to self* just because it has some of the prettiest/cutest/most lovable boys i've laid my eyes/ears on, it doesn't mean i have to fall in love with them over and over again while reading the fic i write about them. >.<

dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.................

the rain poured at 5:14 PM

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Saturday, January 14, 2006

you chose to miss out. you chose to disappear. you chose to commit but you never turned up. you chose to let me believe and think that you were gonna stick to your words. you chose to put someone's hopes so high up and later you chose to drop everything down, with no warning whatsoever. you chose to let everything start but now you just leave it hanging in the air.

from now on, what happens is none of my responsibility.

edit: oh man!!!! sooooo mushyyy!!! but so you, jason. =p haha, and we love you too!!!! remember about the hairband business!!! ^__^

on a slightly sadder note, as in sad, pathetic kinda sad, i now know what the whole point of dota is.. the aim and all and basically characters and rough outline. and.. erm.. what you press to attack someone. but i still don't know how to PLAY!!!!! >.<

the rain poured at 10:59 AM

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Tuesday, January 10, 2006

sian sian sian. and im falling sick. urgh.

*sniffs*

ok.. i really have no energy/time whatsoever to update. dang.. i never knew it would be this busy.

and i hate having to feel guilty.. >.<

edit: and changmin.. no. you do not dump a brand new nice ipod (nano?) on the floor just like that you idiot. but nevermind.. at least its not ipod video. =p

and.. love.. lob? eh??

urgh. im not making much sense am i? just blame it on the horrible running nose. *sniffs*

the rain poured at 12:00 PM

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Saturday, January 07, 2006

*coughs*

sorry.. was just having a little fun in the previous entry.

though part of it's probably true.. i WAS panicky. or maybe i wasn't. probably screwed up my sleeping times.

ended up sleepless till about 3. and after some checks.. i found out 3 was a rather *cough*in*cough* time to sleep on 2nd jan. =)

whatever. but anyway.. orientation's over so yep. crazy girls we had in our group.. laughing like crazy.. about the boys.. about lame jokes.. about the amount of food we ate + pigging out sugar high. melody and her: let's take a picture!! jason's "IM SEXY" which the whole world would see whenever he turned while dancing on stage. the guys.. basically.. gay. =p

a traffic accident outside rj involving a cab.. a dark blue car and... well..... us.

oh and its no joke having your entire face covered in blue body paint. that and more than half your arms. please let my ocean's eleven shirt be alright. >.<>

THE BOX. were-rabbit. crazy cheers which lyrics i had no idea about.. and therefore just basically mimed chewing on a piece of gum. nevermind that. late nights. REALLY late nights. learning that walking along the canal home isn't THAT bad after all. i mean.. it doesn't stink as much nowadays. i hope.

oh yes. and living without downloading a single dong bang thing over the week. *coughs*

actually i lived without dong bang the whole week. save.. suaning sheena whenever i see her with "jung yunho" which i say in a voice which.. apparently according to sheena herself is low and vibrate-y. *raises eyebrows* erm yar.. i supposedly lost it towards the end of last year but somehow i got it back. and erm.. save some ranting here and there.. gushing.. but REALLY minimal.. mistaking a MR group's name as jaeho. *coughs* xiang's wonderful piece of news which has brought our hopes as high as it can ever be. but yes.. that aside.. it's been a relatively dong bang free week. =) *is rather proud of self*

oh yes. i can live without them. i SO can. so THERE.

and with the same amount of determination.. i shall not eat the round piece of egg yolk on my plate now. but then again.. what determination's needed for this?

that didn't really make sense. nevermind. im sleepy.

the rain poured at 10:46 AM

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Monday, January 02, 2006

school's starting.. school's starting.. school's starting.. school's starting............

SCHOOL'S STARTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*runs around like a headless chicken*

the rain poured at 8:32 PM

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Sunday, January 01, 2006

okie dok.. got started on my new fic.. .: love : hasayaki :. so yep. lotsa support needed since im trying out new characters and im not exactly.. "established" in that fanbase. so yes. oh yes.. and its no longer = d.e.j.a = v.u = thanks to my laziness. dejavu. short and sweet. =)

so yep.. shall be posting my chapter up soon. it's been rotting and growing in my brain for ages already. =p

the rain poured at 11:32 PM

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