deja-vu v.2 [ rain... falling in my heart

Sunday, July 30, 2006

missed individual 9th by a single point.

and team gold by a point also.

the only way i can comfort myself is by telling myself that this is my first MAJOR comps and those people are older than me. but either way, they truly deserved it more than me. its just that i couldn't stop the tears.

and i feel super bad about walking away without my team. i just didn't have the guts to think or hear the results. just too scared to do anything, but walk away.

BUT.. BUT.. BUT!!!! on to the next comps. and we'll OWNZ!!!!!

the rain poured at 11:42 AM

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Sunday, July 23, 2006

what?????

im like.. only 17. 17. sweet seventeen (though not so sweet). seven.teen.

im not ready for this. at all. any of this. and you slam it all on me. im sure. this is freaky. and i shall not think about it anymore. yes. i shall go do pw. do pw and be a good girl.

the rain poured at 12:01 PM

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Tuesday, July 18, 2006

gosh. pissed off. and me being so zonked out i can just smash my head into this laptop's not helping things at all.

hello? like surprise, surprise.. but i happen to have a life too. *waves* like.. one outside that. just like you. unfortunate, but true. so what're you gonna do about it?

i mean.. giving everyone that.. oh-my-goodness-im-doing-so-much-for-you-guys-so-why-don't-you-just-kowtow-to-me look. like.. geez. what's with it? seriously.. take a look in the mirror. and, i don't know if its cause you're having problems outside or you're unhappy with how things are going on inside. cause if its cause you're having problems outside, don't others? are yours the only ones can be considered big enough for you? and you just come in looking all pissed off, like the world owes you a living and we should be glad you're even coming. biggie.

and if you're unhappy with things here, just let us know! i mean.. what's with all that self-sacrificial act? in the end, it's just pushed aside. and who cleans it up?

you change things as and when you feel like it or want it. no asking of opinions or objections. just smack down and goodbye. anyone who has problems.. they can go figure how they'll solve it. its none of your business.

just.. urgh. pissed off. better get back to work now. >.<

the rain poured at 9:51 PM

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Saturday, July 08, 2006

started a new fic.. The Betrayer.

can't stand her. 2 hours of listening to dong bang and shinhwa but still pissed. its not like i haven't had enough crap this week. and she pretends to know what's going on but just adds on to all that crap. WARGHHHHHHHHHHH..

the rain poured at 11:12 PM

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