deja-vu v.2 [ rain... falling in my heart

Monday, September 26, 2005

i thought it was bad. but of course, some people just had to make my already bad impression of them.. worse. smart. and to think that i'll be spending majority of my life for the next two years with them. DANG! where's a nice place to dig a hole and bury myself in when i need it??!!!

sheesh. bringing cruelty to an all new level. smartness. ok. true, i've heard of worse. but seriously.. this. won't. last. so treasure it while you have it yar? don't think it'll be happening anytime within this century yar? pigs. and i was just about to rid myself of the prejudice i have towards them. note the use of the word.. have. had the.. still have it now. yep yep. ahhh.. useless rantings once again. bear with me. shall be back with updates once im recharged.. =)

the rain poured at 10:23 PM

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Wednesday, September 21, 2005

once again, here i am, knocking on heartbreak's door, begging it to take me in.

sheesh. this is sheer idiotcrsy. if such a word ever exists. i should be awarded a degree.. a diploma.. a doctorate in stupidity!

oh well.. wang zi bian qing wa.. here i come!

stupid fool of fools..

the rain poured at 8:21 PM

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Saturday, September 17, 2005

la la la. just updated the fanlistings section. go check it out. added on shinhwa and dbsg to the list. *grins* oh yes.. i would like to apologize for repetitions in the sites they're linked to. just.. couldn't decide which pics to use. =p

later: just added on a.. few more. ok. sorry. make that..a lot more. *grins* haha.. lotsa song fanlistings.. and quite a few are for the same song. as i've said.. my indecisiveness and loving-them-all-ness is to blame. =p haha. ok. no such word exists i think. but yar. just had to let you guys see all those nice pics and do that little bit of promotion here and there. *grins* oh yes.. and one of them who i haven't been gushing too much about. actually.. i rarely gush about him. but yar.. kim jae won. acted in love patzzi and rival. which was when i totally fell in love with his character. that poor guy. ahhhh. >.<>

oh. and he was the same guy who nu ren a.k.a julee upon looking at his pic, promptly pronounced him as.. edible. yep. no matter what kinda 'look' he has.

and i sort of agree with her. that he is.. edible.

ok. that was quite pervy. but it's a fact!!! haha. *runs away*

the rain poured at 11:26 AM

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Monday, September 12, 2005

ok. that's it. first, last and only prelims. its something im saying in relief ok? not spite. or in a sad attempt to suan while trying to hide it.

put it this way. we've worked for it. and options aren't exactly as good as they may seem to be. hello? i have to stay in school till 6.30 for how many days? like.. hello?? and i miss my shows.

yar.. sure. you may say that.. at least its better than the stress. look at it from a different point of view alright? we only have ONE paper. ONE paper. ONE. make it or break it. its the only A we can ever get. if we flunk our 'a's.. what we got 4 years ago is all we have. wanna be in our shoes? trust me.. its much more stress you're talking about here.

oh. and we could have had our hols till march. but we're not. and we still have to do WEP, which i don't think YOU guys have to do.

oh.. and another thing, if you have a rebuttal in mind. wake up. we slogged 2 years just for this. 2 whole years. while you guys were out enjoying the fact that your EOYs last year were over, where were we? at macs studying together. because that's the only place we coudl meet.. mass. and guess what? it was so crowded with the holidaying-EOYs-are-over crowd.. that the only place we had was the area next to the entrance. meaning when we look up, its the glass pane. and glass happens to be transparent. so what or who do we see? happy people our age, walking around, shopping, laughing and feeling all relieved that the exams are over. and guess what? they were probably laughing away at the losers who study in a school located closest to town, who were currently, then, mugging their butts off, table filled with notes and reference books that you buy only when you reach jc. so.. beat that. 2 whole years of that.. and more. still wanna complain??

sheesh. ok. not directing this at anybody in particular. ok. maybe there are a group of people. but try looking at things from another perspective will ya?

sigh. and to the rest.. just trying to let off steam.

we freaking deserve it ok?

the rain poured at 9:16 PM

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Sunday, September 11, 2005

someone's about to be hurt. oh well.. what can i do? i've washed my hands off you.

niwae.. on much happier note. ok. maybe not so happy considering the sad number of comments.. w.o.r.d.s f.r.o.m t.h.e h.e.a.r.t has been updated. gosh. think this fic's gonna be the worst i've had. aie.. >.<

the rain poured at 6:48 PM

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Saturday, September 10, 2005

i swear i have a totally low tolerance for pain. so there.

sort of barged into my parents' room. dad asked me to pass him his phone. did so without much complains, but with much difficulty. felt myself turning pale. so mr. dad had this weird grin/smirk thingie on his face and was like, "what happened to you? you walk like you are/have great.."

walk like im in great pain? agony? peril of collapsing on the floor and begging you to call an ambulance? equivalent to having knives stuck into me? actually.. one knife is enough.. i'll be traumitized enough. erm.. yar. ok. sheesh.. i gotta stop exaggerating.

wish SOME people would stop dramatizing their lives. ok. i was dramatizing mine earlier on. but this one's a totally different case. plus.. i admit to it. THEY.. had their fun. so now's our turn. and hello?? you guys don't have to worry about SOME things cause your school makes it so much easier for you guys? so just shaddup and be a man [ which i highly doubt he is, but anywayyyy.. ] and just get it over and done with. geez. whiner.

oh yes. and i forgot. completely forgot about my 3-para-long-would-be-testimonial-under-the-guise-of-getting-to-know-you-better testimonial thingie. oh well.. tan can just give me a short and sweet one which goes.. "while [ lemme think for abit.. ] active in class [ that's what they all said after i decided not to sleep so much during lessons ], doesn't take pride in her work as seen from the reluctance and late-handing in [ or rather.. nil-handing in ] of work [ such as her would-be-testimonial.. ] and important documents which could be the only evidences of her having had a tetiary education, after her PSLE. an improvement in attitude would be greatly appreciated and can be attained if effort is put in. good luck mr. w. h. [ name protected for privacy ]."

bah. ok. i don't know what a testimonial looks like. but yar.. just some crap. poo.

the rain poured at 11:34 AM

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unloading-cum-teeny-weeny-confession-of-some-sort session.. begins.

ok. i haven't touched chinese at all. save writing out all the words and discovering that some words are really really new to me.

oh yes. and if you guys were watching, allan wu appeared in last night's episode of fear factor. the original american one. yep yep. got into the finals, but didn't get the prize. walked away with nothing. but oh well.. he performened quite well. and i sort of knew from the start that he didn't win it, cuase otherwise, it would have been reported in the papers or something. but yar. oh well.. he did qutie well. and was nice to everyone. like seriously nice, encouraging, adn not trying to psyche some people out like what others did. nice guy. gosh. nation pride. =p

my fics are dead. ok. r.a.i.n isn't dead. it's quite alive. but w.o.r.d.s f.r.o.m t.h.e h.e.a.r.t, i can't say the same thing.

i've been slacking all throughout this holidays.

dbsg is.. shared. sheena: u-know, julee: hero, me: changmin, miao-y: micky. ok. actually she wanted xiah. but i begged her to share with me since.. im a pig. a greedy pig. so yar. and xiah is shared by the both of us, namely me and miao-y pok. thanks miao!!!

i think daniel wu is like.. totally cute and hot. yep. he's not exactly young, but still.. gosh. wanna really get down to a daniel-wu-cum-louis-koo movie marathon really soon. the two of them have the cutest comedies ever. the same blur-blur type. *squeals* ok. that was quite stupid. *gushes* yep. that makes a better substitution.

and finally, there was alot more stuff i wanted to blog about. but i forgot. oh well..

the rain poured at 8:51 AM

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Tuesday, September 06, 2005

*inhales* xu zi qian.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*melts into a puddle of unrecognizable blubber*

later: ouch. that's all i can say. there's no more turning back, don't you understand? what you've said.. you can't take it back. so stop pretending as though nothing happened, that there's nothing wrong. cause just the thought itself is wrong. wrong wrong wrong. let go will you?

the rain poured at 2:28 PM

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Monday, September 05, 2005

*shuffles in* ok. i admit it. i haven't been a good girl.. or a good reviewer.. bad me. argh!!! sigh. ok.. now im feeling really bad. i should have finished reviewing the fics which were submitted earlier on. stupid me. evil me. argh.

feeling awful now. don't know why. just.. drained. totally draining. napola that is. and the only timing they had was at 9.15. which meant that after long long adverts and the movie.. and cabbing home which i rarely do.. i reached home at about 11.40. showered. was in a total daze and forgot some stuff. got a sore throat [ which also hardly happens to me ] when i woke up this morning.

felt awful after lunch. had a bad tummyache. and now im dead tired. 3 movies in 4 days. im crazy. it might have been 4 movies in 4 days though. but yar. sigh. really tired now. and there's still piano. ok. i might just faint in my way there considering how hot it is and how horrible i feel now. haven't felt this bad since the time i had a fever and later found out i was running a constant temperature of 40 degrees and above. and i was totally breathing like darth vader. oh! and it was on the day that star wars opened. yep. im tired. really tired.

the rain poured at 3:58 PM

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