Sunday, April 17, 2005
im sick and tired sick and tired sick and tired.
sick and tired of all this crap.
sick and tired of ______ partners who don't do their job. and don't really care about it.
sick and tired of school.
sick and tired of stress.
sick and tired of never-ending homework.
sick and tired of never-ending deadlines.
sick and tired of faces which come up to you with this "oh my goodness, you totally can't do the job properly.. you suck" or "who do you think you are" face and go "do you think you're doing the right thing?" or "are you sure you're making good use of whatever-blah-blah-blah?"
sick and tired of whining juniors who are ungrateful and don't even know how to appreciate what they have because they're convinced its totally horrible.
sick and tired of juniors who ask totally irrelevant questions although they know we're rushing for time.
sick and tired of yelling, screaming and shouting at them.
sick and tired of them looking like im gonna eat them up later when i need them to smile to look like they're enjoying the dance.. because i just yelled at them.
sick and tired of teachers who keep thinking that you had the weekend of your life because it was a long weekend.. or maybe not.. when in actual fact you're slogging your butt off trying to complete some work they gave ages ago.
sick and tired of teachers complaining that we're not doing our part although they're doing this and that and this and that for us.
sick and tired of *ahem* people who seriously.. should just get the hint and get lost.
sick and tired of freaking worrying every single day about whether a presentation is due.. or a report is due.. or an assignment is due. or *gasps* horrors of all horrors.. there's a test that day.
sick and tired of people expecting things from you when they're not doing their part.
sick and tired of expectations and requirements.
sick and tired of rules and regulations.
sick and tired of worrying what will happen if energy disbands.
sick and tired of trying to accomodate to some people.
sick and tired of not being the real me.
sick and tired of the fact that im gonna spend my birthday in school. the entire day. slogging and worrying away.
sick and tired of what the public expects of us.
sick and tired of what the seniors expect of us.
sick and tired of having to live up to expectations both from above and below.
sick and tired of having to rush homework.
sick and tired of my back problem.
sick and tired of people testing me regarding my dance steps.
sick and tired of living everyday with an increase in the buildup of cancerous cells in my body.
sick and tired of projects and presentations and reports and homework and lessons and tests.
sick and tired of wondering what i have to do once i get home and whether i can get it done. and if i can't.. which take priority.
sick and tired of not having enough sleep.
sick and tired of thinking before i say or do something because of the consequences.
sick and tired that we're living in a real world.
sick and tired that we have to be pragmatic.
sick and tired of whining.
sick and tired of complaining of the stress.
sick and tired of pissing everyone off cause im busy screaming away on my blog that im stressed.
im sick. and tired. of every. freaking thing.
i wish i could just...
update my fics everyday.
get to listen to nice songs everyday.
not have to worry every single day that there's something due or something going on the next day or today itself.
live a simple life.
stay 15 forever.
its just so hard to get these things.
i think i finally know what they mean when they say simple pleasures. i wish someone could just come and take it all away.
the rain poured at 11:07 AM
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