deja-vu v.2 [ rain... falling in my heart

Sunday, April 30, 2006

LG M6100 PERVERT ON THE LOOSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! anyone and everyone with a lg m6100 had better run for cover. WITH YOUR PHONE. or else..................

LG M6100 lust.

im so dead.

edit: changed the song/mv below to one. i know its kinda small. but totally fits my mood now.

the rain poured at 12:24 PM

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Saturday, April 29, 2006

i didn't know i would hurt. i mean.. all that talk about plans.

and on the day itself.. ta-dah. nothing.

i know i shouldn't be jealous.. i shouldn't be upset by what i see or read. but..urgh. who were the ones standing by you all this while? when they're pissed off with you or vice versa.. we're there. when they don't want you.. we're waiting at the sidelines for you to talk to us about what happened. but the moment they turn to you.. poof! you disappear. nevermind about us.

whatever. that's it. things haven't been looking too good.. or even good at all these days. its time to get back to certain things in life which require more of my attention.

and on a TOTALLY SEPARATE NOTE: my heart will officially die at 12 midnight, 29th april 2006.

unless of course mr prince-charming-to-be appears with *cough*something*cough.

otherwise.. i've been and will be listening to stuff like zai yi ci yong you, one, unforgivable sinner and the like for the rest of the night. and they will continue playing in my head when i enter dreamland tonight. *sniffs* sad sad life..

the rain poured at 10:36 PM

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Sunday, April 23, 2006

here comes another im-such-an-unintellectual-idiot entry of mine.

i thought its quite unlikely to happen again. but here's to another weekend whereby there's no one at home except for me and the maid. and here i am, sitting before the comp, doing my work (or at least trying very hard to but being distracted like nobody's business, and ending up downloading/watching pretty boys clips) wondering when i should walk over to my parent's room to watch some tv. note: some doesn't really mean SOME. its just a way of saying.

anyway, i think my hair's too short. oh well.. shall wait and see the reactions of everyone tomorrow. though some population of rj has already seen it. but somehow majority doesn't seem to find much of a diff. but its really quite drastic what. i mean.. no more.. qiao4-ness.. no more crazy fringe that's as long as the rest of my hair.

crap. my fringe really is too short. and the reason being that it was a result of my stone-ness yesterday.

setting: at my hairdresser's, with UV (uncle vincent), probably the only hairdresser i really trust besides the guy at parkway 10 bucks thingie, cutting my hair while talking to me. which is what we usually do.

me: so yar, we only take our hcl 'o's. *me explaining rp, although i swear i explained it to him before when i last went to cut my hair after FAM. but nevermind. he's a really nice guy.*

UV: wah, so good. more relax lorh. *scissors go: snip snip snip. hands move quickly and hair continues falling*

me: haha.. its ok lah. *stares stonily into the mirror for awhile while UV picks up almost my entire left fringe*

UV: *silence falls as he snips off more than half of left fringe*

me: *continues staring in a very stoned fashion at the mirror*

UV: *trims a little here and there*

me: *kinda wakes up and stares at the mirror, this time for real, to see the progress* *senses something amiss in the instructions as to how to cut my hair* ah.. btw UV, i don't want my fringe to be too short..

UV: *pauses to digest what i've just said*

- long, torturous moments pass as i hope and pray that once again.. like all the zillion times before, i have spoken before the deed was done and UV will think for awhile before saying: ok. can lah. but not too long also right? i'll just lighten it abit.. yahdah yahdah -

me: or.. cut already?

UV: yar.. cut already.

me: *thinks: die*

UV: *plays with hair a little to show me my fringe's actual length now*

me: aie ok. nevermind then. *spends the next 10 seconds or so literally kicking my right foot with my left and vice versa*

- end of pok story of my haircut experience -

but oh well.. it wasn't that bad. i've had worse. so yep. shall wait to see the reactions of everyone (if there's gonna be any) on monday. i've had weird flashes throughout my stoning yesterday that somehow when im kinda asleep at the zcove on monday.. justina or someone will come and try to shoo me away thinking that im not from the og.

and due to the horrible stress i've been undergoing today after finding out i totally didn't touch on manageability and feasibility in my PW PI, i got down to doing it straightaway.

imagine the horror and unhappiness/reluctance i experienced when i opened the document to redo it, knowing perfectly well that i engineered it yesterday before i left to cut my hair, such that it was exactly 530 words, after which i happily changed the title to PI_final. heartbreak arh heartbreak.

oh well. so i got down to it. added some stuff.. took away some stuff. and i was quite sure that the stuff i added was minimal.

but as i've said earlier.. due to the stress i had undergone and the trauma i experience in having to even THINK about editing it, i somehow ended up hallucinating that the word limit was 300.

so once again, stretch your imagination and imagine the horror i experienced when i did a word count and found out that i had 465 words.

*and henceforth, a crazy editing of words begins*

i was totally on the verge of wailing before throwing myself out of the window before me, when after much much much much much editing, i found out i still had 461 words. which was like a horrible ONE HUNDRED AND ELEVEN/SIXTY-ONE words above my hallucinated word limit.

i almost died-ed.

but thank goodness i found out. now i dunno.. but i have too few words and i forgot which ones i took away. shall have to undo like crazy.

and so, this brings an end to another horribly unintellectual entry of mine.

the rain poured at 12:15 PM

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Thursday, April 20, 2006

i just feel unhappy. i have no idea why. just really really unhappy. crap.

i wanna cry

the rain poured at 8:23 PM

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Saturday, April 15, 2006

we studied this poem quite awhile ago.. kinda skimmed through it as compared to the other poems which we went through in greater detail. but this one kinda got stuck in my head. i've been wanting to type it out and post it but never really got down to doing it until today.

Sonnet II

Time does not bring relief; you all have lied
Who told me time would ease me of my pain!
I miss him in the weeping of the rain;
I want him at the shrinking of the tide;
The old snows melt from every mountain-side,
And last year's leaves are smoke in every lane;
But last year's bitter loving must remain
Heaped on my heart, and my old thoughts abide!
There are a hundred places where I fear
To go, - so with his memory they brim!
And entering with relief some quiet place
Where never fell his foot or shone his face
I say, 'There is no memory of him here!'
And so stand stricken, so remembering him.

- Edna St. Vinct Millay (1892-1950)

the rain poured at 1:02 PM

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Friday, April 14, 2006

yeo kz says that my entries are unintellectually stimulating.

*sniffs* break my heart. not that i care. =p

haha.. but anyway, i don't know. never really felt the need to have those really.. reflective or mind boggling entries. felt that it kinda defeats the purpose of a blog. i mean.. true a blog is meant to be a diary of some sort. but it IS an online diary after all. and it being online and not the kind you can touch and hold and is bound and in terms of physical appearances, is very gorgeous, means its meant to be read by other people. and when people come online.. especially these days, with so many things to stress about and *coughs* term papers to freak out about and deadlines to pull your hair over, why have something else which forces/is there to make you think? or even for those reflective entries. when they're not about people or things that people know.. then they're usually about things that happened to you or things that are bothering you, and people don't really know of. so why blog about things that people don't know about when its meant for them to read? and should they know about it, at times it means that that certain thing is bothering you. and there's this really high chance that the person who reads cares enough to read, so why make another person worried? isn't one person being unhappy enough as it is?

ok. ignore all this if it doesn't make sense. which will probably be the case. blah.

but thanks to the comment by yeo kz, yours truly who really isn't a very intellectual person is very tempted to post entire gp/hist/lit essays up here. to show that there's some intellectual-ness in me. albeit a tiny bit which is so close to being non-existent.

the rain poured at 5:17 PM

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Thursday, April 13, 2006

dum di dum~~~!!! haha.. i was totally tempted to post this entry last night. but oh well.. due to certain unforeseen circumstances. but anyway.. here it is today.

YAYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!! im done with all essays!!!!

lit ge: check.

lit PC: just check.

HA. HA. HA. i rule the world.

my ass.

but anyway.. so yes. that was part of yesterday's entry. today.. i take it all back. cause rolly just announced that we have our hist term paper coming to us really soon.

best.

i cry.

this is so saddening. and i realize that i use the phrase "i (feel in blank with certain phrases)" quite often these days.

especially at a certain y kz. just a few seconds ago, for the nth time today, i typed "ha. ha. ha. i laff at youuuuuuu." and happily clicked enter.

and if he's reading this now.. for the "n+1"th time..

HA. HA. HA. I LAFF AT YOUUUUUUUUUUU.

=p

sorry.. i just HAD to do that. you can piss me off or drink from my waterbottle again without my permission on monday.

the rain poured at 7:58 PM

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Sunday, April 02, 2006

there. another weekend spent doing history term paper. and at around this time, alcina's nick changes and becomes: .;*alcina··· [DONE DONE DONE!!] (blah blah blah.. continue with the rest of her current nick).

yes. ok. im such a procrastinating pok. shall get down to my final conclusion and edit. i have like.. 20 plus words before i hit the word limit. best. *jabs self*

the rain poured at 4:23 PM

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