deja-vu v.2 [ rain... falling in my heart

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

uh oh. someone's stepped onto someone else's foot. touchy touchy time again.

sigh. i don't know why.. but i suddenly feel like winglin's quite an.. unsafe place? like.. you could end up being criticized and scolded and bemeaned and.. brought down hard by someone.. just *snap* like that. either that.. or just somehow or another, you end up angering someone.. intentional or not. sigh. freaky.

niwae.. ok. i know i really should be updating soon. march hols are approaching. so yep.. just bear with no-updates for now yar? and.. keep my tagboard alive meanwhile? *hopeful look*

there's been lotsa.. politics going on around me now. sort of.. growing.. sian. yar. there's so much politics. everything just slowly gets more and more.. corrupted? and.. its no longer the innocent world with the outright "i friend you" and "i don't friend you anymore" with the smiles and the sulks. there's just so much backstabbing. its tiring. i've really been trying to keep my temper in control. and i really am improving. but.. its like every single day just requires me to have more patience and control my temper better. after awhile you feel like bursting. its really tiring. im the sort of person who's more straightforward with what i feel. if i like you, you'll get to know it. if i don't.. you should get the hint. or i'll tell you outright. but now.. its just so hard to stay the same.

so what can i do? i don't exactly have a choice now. but. argh. just hope they get the hint. sometimes such people really end up hurting others. and they're just so fake. what about being there for others.. always ready with a hug for you.. and the next moment.. you're just super insensitive to others when they're down. sigh. ok. blabbering.

la la la. the workload should be lessening as the year goes on. i hope. it should. stress on the word should. =p so yep.. i'll just get ready all my updates during the hols so i can post them even when im busy?

miss my free time. really miss it. huggies huggies huggies pampers to all you guys!

edited [9th march 9:40pm]: blog music's been changed by the way if you guys realized. tags pleaseee? my blog's quite very dead now. sigh. enjoy the music niwae!

the rain poured at 7:41 PM

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